Friday, November 16, 2007

Logging and talking and pictures of my arm


.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess, and in hopes it might help someone else as I do.I do not pretend nor imatate to be someone I'm not.I have to be careful, apparently someone are way too obsessed with 'my' life. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. And if there is something in what I write that "offends" you, options; don't read, or realize that this IS real life, and get out of your plastic bubble and learn more about it! I also know that what I write in MY journal, that NOT everyone will agree with me and I don't expect them to! God bless you!......


I need to do some logging. Sorry about this, but it helps me to remember and I can go back and find this better then I can in my mind. :o)

Today, my left arm has been numb from my shoulder down alittle past my elbow. It really feels pretty weird! Because I can touch my arm, and in certain places I can't feel anything. I feel that this is just odd. It's been this way all day. It's gotten a bit in being able to use my arm properly and numbness going a bit lower slowly. The doctor just said to keep heat on my arm! As you can isn't helping them. If anything, I have more now.

They're not the best pictures but, maybe you can still see what I've been talking about. Yes, I should have had pictures taken right when it happened! I just wasn't thinking.

I do hope that you understand how difficult it is to get around to all of your journals. I'm so sorry for not getting to all of them. I read some and comment and then my arm starts to hurt. Like right now. Geesh! I haven't forgotten any of you.

Also....about me going private. Yes, I do and am, but right now....I have way too much on my mind right now and someone in our family is in intensive care right now...and I am dealing with something personal, and in hopes trying to maybe get back what we had, a friendship. To me, my family and friendship is so much more important to me, than this journal! Not being mean, just honest. So....thats why it has taken me awhile, and I don't even know how much longer it's going to take. I was thinking maybe I won't go private, at least for now, but just stay public still. I'm sorry about my mind changing, but I honestly have way too much going on in my real life right now to even bother with it. My real life is way more important! :o)

This graphic is so very true! I screwed something up and am working on what I did wrong. is really all I've been doing lately! :o) I know that having that oxygen has really helped me sleep! :o) It's great! I also use it when I get upset....or an anxiety attack....I go and sit in bed and turn it on. It just helps me to get my breath back. I'm very thankful for having it. :o)

My daughter and I are going to get our hair cut on Monday!  <shaking in my little space boots>  I just need a trim, and she's getting all of that beautiful hair of hers cut off! AAACCCKKK! I'm going to miss it! :o) I think she has such beautiful hair! Yes....there will be pictures! :o)
Thats about all really. For the last 3 times on Wednesday's, I haven't been able to get out to go to the Adult Day Care Center. I'll get there when I can. :o) And yesterday...the craft was painting bird houses too! :o) I love to do things like that! LOL I know...I sound stupid, but I really love to do crafts! :o)~ I'm a nerd! lol I think I still have a box upstairs that has wood stuff in it. When we lived in our other house...(yes I still miss it)...I had a craft room! I loved it! :o) Now, I have to ask if anyone knows where this or that is of mine (crafts) so I can have something to do! lol

My daughter was here last night and I asked her if she would put lotion on my legs and feet! I know, eeewww! lol Well...she did and clipped my nails! I really needed that done! It really felt so good. My grandson came in and he helped too! lol He's just too cute and has such a big heart! :o) I thanked her for doing that for me. Not many peolple understand how hard it is for someone to be able to rub my own foot or something like that! It's hard for me because of all of my pains. But...I do do it when I can! :o) I feel if I'm in this much pain anyways, why not just get things done that need to be done! :o) I'm in pain anyways! :o) lol I thinker is a bit off.....a lot like I am! lol

I really need to go. My last person to call about my arm is my nurse....and I'm just wondering if she'll tell me the samething or not. She seemed to agree with the doctor (that I hate) about putting heat on my arm...and not giving me something to break up the blood clots! ggrr! ....they walk amoung us! :o) Scary!

Thank you for your comments and wonderful words! Don't forget to sign my guest book on the side bar! lol...I know Lynn....thank you! :o) You are so funny! lol So you are now excluded! lol :o) answer your question...LOL...Still no action! Darn it! :o)~ Do you know of anyone? lol


Good, better, best; never let it rest till your good is better and your better is best.





glensfork4 said...

Wishing you felt better.....


arlenes627 said...

Yep, find out why your arm is numb. Where's that nurse? Did you say you were getting more pain than usual the other day or was it only yesterday?  Did you call your primary doc?

sugarsweet056 said...

I couldn't see the lumps you're talkingabout, but I can imagine how uncomfortable they are. Take care.

ceilisundancer said...

I'd love a craft room, too:)

I'm glad that your daughter could put on lotion and clip your toenails.  I used to do that for my dad.

layla44808 said...

Is it possible for you to see another doctor? It seems to me that they would want to do something about this. I don't see warm compresses being the answer.
You do what you need to do for you..take care of yourself. and your family..You're right, that is what is important.
Hugs, Sheri

my78novata said...

hope your arm gets beter I know its agrrevating to be numb. I hope your crisis is over and you can go private VERY SOON

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((((((LISA))))))))))))))))))))I aggree with you,family is more important than being online,we all know oyu love us and care for us.I just hate to see you in so much pain.I wish I could dosomehting for you.Have a nice weekend.

pharmolo said...

Real life does take precedence over J-land, Lisa. Sounds to me like the bloodclots are exerting pressure on your nerves, although that is a dangerously long-distance assumption. Please be careful with them.

jmoqueen said...

Your daughter sounds like an angel ~ can't wait to see the pics of her hair :)  Bless your grandson wanting to help!!  I hope you manage to get to the day centre again soon xx


ajquinn354 said...

Lisa with your arm hurting so much, don't overdue with your messages to all of us, wouldn't want to see your arm get worse.  Just drop a note when you can and let us know how you are, know you enjoy being able to send all the stuff you do, but your health, arm have to come first, wouldn't want to see you do more damage to the arm.  Enjoy your hair cutting outting with your daughter on Monday.
Know it's not easy for you dear going through all you have going on, just be careful and take care of YOU first.   Arlene (AJ)

dca721 said...

Hi Lisa,
Hope you are feeling better soon.

geocachelinda66 said...

Hey Princess, I'm glad you got out to the center and had fun!  Hope your arm is feeling better soon!  Linda

imgr8phil said...

It's hard to make out but I did see a lump there.  And the numbness can't be making you feel any better either.  Glad the oxygen is  helping you to sleep.  Take care and have a decent weekend.


emabecmar said...

I do see a couple spots where it looks as though there is a lump. That was so nice of your daughter to pamper her momma some. I hope you have a nice weekend. ((((((hugs))))

ma24179 said...

Hey I hope you don't end up going private, and I hope you changed your mind permently and dont go!! I love your journal!!! -Missy

lisa41076 said...

Awwwwww Lisa sorry your arm is still bothering you, praying for your sick family member.Love You Lisa XO

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malagutigrrl said...

I was wondering about your bruising...reminds me of Ma.  You're not on a blood thinner for high cholesterol by any chance, are you?
No need to apologize for not getting around to journals.  We all do the best we can.  In fact, I'm catching up myself today.  I've had several days of Vertigo.  Usually it doesn't last so long (more than a day)...I'm wondering if it has more to do with my high blood pressure than my MS this time.  
Old age is a shipwreck, boy!  

heavenlybama said...

You're not stupid for doing crafts.  It's something you can still do and be creative with it.  I do needlework until my carpal tunnel bothers me then I have to put it away for awhile, scrapbook, latchhook, etc.  Even my laptop aggravates it sometimes too.  Did you get your laptop yet?  I hope so.  As you can see, I'm catching up!  LOL

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