Monday, November 26, 2007


I'm still awake again. This is for the birds. I'm trying to make myself tired.
I had a great day today. My daughter nad my grandson came over to help decorate the Christmas tree. Thats always been a tradition, The tree gets put up and it will sit there until my kids are here to put the orniments on. I used to do the lights, but thats something way too hard for me to do anymore. Getting the things out of the boxes is bad enough on me. And Madia (my dog) did need to go out to potty. I thought so. She will sit there to let us know that...or that she wants to go out front by herself. I don't do that until Jim is home. He does it for her. I don't know what I'd do if anything happened to her.
I was able to get things off my mind earlier. <Huge sigh> Boy do I feel better.
My Home Health Aide came today. So she was here when the kids were decorating. I have my cell phone in my bedroom being charged and I got a call. My ring tone is Ozzy Osbourne's Crazy Train. So when it went off, she ran in there because she thought someone was in there and something was wrong. I was following her to answer it because I knew what it was. I was finally able to tell her what it was. I have that ring tone because I love Ozzy and it's loud so I can hear it. She asked me what the "noise" was that was coming through my phone, and I told her that it was just Ozzy signing Crazy Train. She's 2 years older then I am and she didn't know who he was. I told her that she was the first person I've ever met that didn't know who he was. Wow. She says she's always listened to country music. When I told her what I listen to and the kind of music my son plays in his band, and she just looked at me and shivered. So, now I know not to have any of mine or my sons music playing while she's here. I don't want her to freak out on me. We don't listen to satanic music or anything close to that, it's just hard rock and alternative rock.
I was writing back and forth to my daughter tonight, and I told her that I'm depressed. She said that she kind of thought I was, by the way I am during the day. I have all blinds closed, all curtains shut and my curtains that seperate this room to the living room. It makes it nice and dark at this end of the house. I like it that way. My eyes have gotten worse and I can see in the dark anyways. My eyes still don't dialate properly either. They are still big, and when the light comes through, it feels like acid is being thrown in my eyes. So I stay clear of it until Jim gets home. He has to have every light on in the house. I'm the opposite. I think it's so much more relaxing this way, and he thinks it's more depressing for him my way. And if I'm on the computer during the day, all the light thats on is from the monitor. I know, I'm weird. I admit to it.
And I was once a sun worshiper as well. I'd get up in the morning, put my bikini on, grab my blanket and go finish sleeping in the sun. I used to be dark all the time. You see how dark complected Jim is, I was always that color or darker then him. Plus, it does seem that since all of my illnesses, it actually took all of my color to my skin. I know that may sound weird too but, I'm Hungarian and Native American. Dark skinned. Odd.
I'm done rambling on. I asked my daughter if she is coming over tomorrow and she doesn't know yet. It's just been awhile since we've spent time together. I miss her. Yes, I love her new hair cut too. It's so cute on her. Mine had a chop job done on it. This is why I don't like anyone else doing my hair. The next time, I'm doing it my self. I complained about it and the other lady tried to fix it but couldn't because it was chopped that bad. It looks like I have dog ears. is funny looking. Oh well.




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astoriasand said...

I HOPE YOU GET A GOOD REST THROUGH THE DAYTIME TuESDAY LISA TO MAKE UP FOR THE LOST SLEEP DURING THE NIGHT.PRaYERS BEING SAID YOU HAVE A BETTER DAY THEN.ROCK ON OZZY !!NOTHING WRONG WITH OZZY. LOL. Your day care doesn't know her music and I love country too and lots of differant kind of music,but like you said.I would have thought  everyone had heard of OZZY Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.TAKE CARE GOD BLESS KATH

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((((LISA))))))))))))))))))I do hope and pra ou get some sleep.The day times are wors for me to.I  am more depressed during the day time,than at night.My prayers are always with you.Have a good night.

my78novata said...

I hear the water areobics helps peple sleep . maybe if the YMCA offers that or some other place you could get into that

geocachelinda66 said...

That HHA must of lived in a cave!  Even people who only listen to country probably know who Ozzy is!  Might I suggest getting some sunglasses and getting a little sunlight every day?  Good for the body and soul!  Love ya!  Linda

nightmaremom said...

Lisa...  hope you get that sleep you need...  maybe sunglasses and some natural light in the house will help cheer you up a bit....... it's worth a shot

pharmolo said...

Hope you've had some sleep Lisa :-)

specialadyfink said...

Light bothers me-I keep it dark ,also.I do go outside but I have to wear my prescription sunglasses because I have an astigmatism(probably spelled that wrong).I hate  it when I can't fall asleep,it's like -come on -I'm tired -I need to sleep-nothing helps,ggrrrrrrr/
Take care

ceilisundancer said...

Perhaps you could have your eyes checked out (or perhaps you have ,or it's one of the side symptons you get)?  I prefer dark sometimes, myself.  But if your eyes are not dilating properly, and sunlight feels like acid, that is my concern for you.  Glad you got your tree and decorations up:)

kamdghwmw said...

When I was in high school I use to work nights. So I would come home and sleep in the sun! LOL Oh what I would not give to have those carefree days back!

lisa41076 said...

Awwwww Lisa I am so sorry you have been depressed, I know that feeling well, I love Ozzy's music, Love You Lisa XO

dca721 said...

I'm sorry you don't like your hair cut.
Did you post pics of yours and daughters?  Maybe I missed.
My hairdresser never takes off too much hair.
I've never left there and felt that it would be fine in two weeks.
Sometimes not enough!
I like it dark too...I don't think it's odd.
Try and have a good day.
Satanic you crack me up!

xomywayox said...

Ozzy??? You rock on! And I am a dark person too. My kids have learned to get use to it. anyhoo, glad your tree is up. Have a great day.


lanurseprn said...

I thought everyone knew who Ozzy was??? OMG is she from another planet? LOL!
Hope you get some rest today.

jmoqueen said...

She didn't know who Ozzy was?  What is going on in this world??  I think you should play her the music, teach her a musical lesson ;)  I sometimes like to sit there with just the TV light or the monitor light, it's nice!!


ajquinn354 said...

Can't believe she didn't know Ozzy, heck I even watched his families reality show when it was on.  Take care...Arlene (AJ)

imgr8phil said...

What planet does she live on that she has never heard of Ozzy Osbourne?  Hope you were able to get some sleep.  Take care.


cuteallison1980 said...

I do hope you get some rest Lisa.  I'm worried a lot about you.  Even I have heard of OZZY.  I watched some of that TV show he was on.  I am a reality sow junky lol.  Luv ya!


emabecmar said...

I do hope your able to get some sleep tonight. ((((hugs)))))

wwfbison said...

Cool ringtone you've got there!!!  I do hope you get a goods night sleep.

heavenlybama said...

I use that ring tone for my text messages and Sweet Home AL for my calling ringtone since I live here.  I love Ozzy.  I can't believe your health aide never heard of him.  I used to watch his reality show.  I'd like to get the DVD's of it.
Love ya,