Monday, November 5, 2007

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.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess, and in hopes it might help someone else as I do.I do not pretend nor imatate to be someone I'm not.I have to be careful, apparently someone are way too obsessed with 'my' life. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. And if there is something in what I write that "offends" you, options; don't read, or realize that this IS real life, and get out of your plastic bubble and learn more about it! I also know that what I write in MY journal, that NOT everyone will agree with me and I don't expect them to! God bless you!......


 



I hope that everyone had a great weekend!


Thanks for letting me know who still wants to read my journal after I go private. I never realised I had so many readers. :o) Don't forget to sign my guest book. :o)



I didn't have a very good weekend at all! I've been having too many feelings just going around in my head, and my heart was shattered on Saturday!

I know that I am so numb right now. No one that lives in this house is the one that has really hurt me bad. I was under the impression that if they had a problem with me, they said they would come to me first.

It didn't happen. When I was questioned about something by someone that lives here, I couldn't believe what I heard. I told this person the truth.

And yet, I was still being accused of something I didn't do. Even my daughter was pulled into this. How and why, I don't know. When asked, I told this person what she did as well. She hasn't writen in her journal for a long time and the last thing that she posted in her my space was a joke that I've sent her.

I don't understand how someone can say something to another, when they either do not live in this house 24/7 and actually knows what goes on, or at least come to me about your problem. No one knows the battle that I go through in life and the other persons that lives here. Is this right?

That is what I 'think' that love and friendship is. Believe me, I've been so hurt by this person! I'm shattered! Again....I can't seem to find the right words to describe how I'm feeling right now and how I've felt from Saturday and on.......!

So, once again...I have to put on a 'happy face' so that it makes the person that lives here and the other person happy. And this is very hard to do! From the two people in my life that I cared for so very much to hurt me and say the things that were said!


Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass; it's about dancing in the rain NAKED!!


 


 


23 comments:

my78novata said...

In  so sorry. I hope you go private soon and you dont need this person!!!!!! you really do not

malagutigrrl said...

well...  I have no idea what you're talking about but I sure hope you're ok!  

pharmolo said...

I really hope you can close that episode, Lisa. It's one thing having physical pain, it's quite another having it exacerbated by emotional pain.

chat2missie said...

I'm sorry you were hurt!
Missie

mcknansmom said...

sounds like you are doing the right thing....
take care
tina

astoriasand said...

Go private as ASAP thats the best thing I say.You can do without all this heartache you are going through.Try be happy and forget all this.I hope you can feel a lot better today.Take Care God Bless Kath
astoriasand http://journals.aol.co.uk/astoriasand/MYSIMPLERHYMES

wwfbison said...

Sorry you are in so much pain over what happened.  I don't know what happened but try to move on and don't let others determine your happiness.
Lisa
http://journals.aol.com/wwfbison/life-on-a-bison-farm

lanurseprn said...

I'm confused as to what happened, but I'm sorry you were hurt.
Pam

siennastarr said...

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lisa41076 said...

Awwwwwww Lisa I am so sorry you got hurt but maybe if that person is'nt in your life anymore you will feel better, Love You Lisa XO

specialadyfink said...

I love how you kinda/sorta told that this 'person' had you in 'their' confidence about something this 'person' did and you will keep your promise not to 'tell' but you did in a roundabout way.

So this 'person' can stick that in 'their' pipe and smoke it,LOL

ajquinn354 said...

Lisa was confused about who/what was going on your way, but can feel how hurt you are.  You've got to get that negativity out of your life for sure, it sure isn't good for your health and well being dear.  I know it terrible when someone hurts you like that, but don't allow yourself to fall prey to it or it just brings you down. Just ignore those that hurt you, if they see they aren't, they'll hopefully cut it out. Take care.
Arlene

hugsdoodlewacky said...

(((((((((((((((LISA)))))))))))))))))))))I am sorry this happend to you.I wish I knew the right words to say.Just know,I care.Have a good day.

mztishgray0726 said...

Lisa I will continue to pray for you.  Tish G.

annakathleen0103 said...

Lisa, don't let anybody get you down.

Anna

dca721 said...

Lisa,
I am sorry.
WTH
Wish this wouldn't happen to you.
YOU are so sweet.
Try and let it roll off.
I know, easier said than done.
Love you,
Donna
I forgot to sign your guest book again!
I will try and remember next time.

queeniemart said...

you are in my prayers.
XO lj

preciousone25 said...

Sorry you were so hurt by this person, I hope things get better soon for you.

Joann

kamdghwmw said...

I do not understand how anyone can judge someone. If you do not live my life then do not judge me, just support me even if I am wrong.
Kelli
http://journals.aol.com/kamdghwmw/noonmom

layla44808 said...

I'm so sorry to hear that things are so bad right now..Sending good thoughts and prayers your way..
Hugs, Sheri

heavenlybama said...

You're in my thoughts and prayers as always Lisa.
Hugs,
D

katie39041 said...

I am so sorry you are going through all this trouble you certainly do not need it.
love and hugs
Katie

arlenes627 said...

beautiful post