Sunday, March 2, 2008

Thankful for just being....

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess, and in hopes it might help someone else as I do.I do not pretend nor imatate to be someone I'm not. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. And if there is something in what I write that "offends" you, options; don't read, or realize that this IS real life, and learn more about it! I also know that what I write in MY journal, that NOT everyone will agree with me and I don't expect them to! God bless you!......

Good morning.....I do hope that everyone is doing/feeling fine.

Early this morning I woke up crying. Around 2:00 the pains in my spine were very intence. I tried everything I could think of to try and help it...nothing was working. So I had to get up. No matter what, it felt as if I was doing a back bend! Even bending still felt that way. I never really know what to do when this happens. I just know how I'm feeling. If I could open up my back, I would so I can get my hands on whats hurting me and just massage it. Just dreaming. :o)

My daughter and her cute little family went to see Nemo on ice yesterday! That sounded like fun! :o) I know Kayden would love it....he loves fish! :o) They didn't come home last night, so I don't have any pictures to show. She has my camera. I can't wait to see them as well!
Kayden was excited when they left! :o) Bless him! :o) daughter is down to 1 and 1/2 months! Yay! :o) She's having the baby c-section. She had to with Kayden and now she has to with this baby as well. She's suppose to have him, April 14th! :o) She's going to name this baby after the baby I miscaraged. His name was Andrew. So, she's going to name him Andrew Conner! :o) And I can't wait to meet him. :o)

Yesterday I noticed that I really wasn't going to thebathroom like I was. I weighed myself and I'm back up to 199 now!!! Yikes! Higher then the last times! gggrrr! I can call my nurse tomorrow and let her know whats going on.
I was also having a lot of those coughing fits because I wasn't able to breathe! Dh does this! This really scares me. It's so hard to catch any breath. I don't know what to do about those. I'll just tell my nurse. It was happening to me all day! I was using my inhaler to help as well. And it does work....when I am able to catch enough breath to be able to use it. Dh has asthma pretty bad so he has these too. They are scary.

Dh and I watched a movie last night. It was 1408. Not bad at all! :o)
When it was over, I went to bed. After awhile, I had a hard time keeping my eyes open. It wasn't the movie doing it to me, I just got tired pretty quick.
I had to go to bed as soon as the movie was over. I was just so tired.

Today will have to be a relaxing day. The pains of being all stressed out, doesn't help the day go by any faster. It just drags it out.
And by the way, I want to thank you for letting me know. (from my last entry) I appreciated it. :o) I love you all...and I would never hurt anyone intentually.
I'm going to go play a few games on Pogo. That relaxes me. Have a happy day! God bless all of you!

Happiness keeps you Sweet,
Trials keep you Strong,
Sorrows keep you Human,
Failures keep you Humble,
Success keeps you Glowing,
But Only God Keeps You Going!



specialadyfink said...


pharmolo said...

Hope your day will be better than it started, Lisa

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((LISA)))))))))))))))I will pray that you will be pain free today and everyday.

gehi6 said...

I can't believe your new grandbaby will soon be here.  Kayden has such dstinctive looks.  His eyes are so big and blue.  It will be very interesting to see what the new baby looks like, mom or dad.  Asthma can be very scary.  Fighting for breath cannot be fun.  I used to tense up the second my sister started to wheeze with an attack, and I am sorry to say I was sometimes mean to her and would say, "Stop that wheezing!"  Which of course she could not stop. Fortunately this stage in my ignorance did not last long and I was able to be kinder. I am sure that you got extremely supersensitive with all the bad news you were absorbing, so you just did not have any stretch, as you had under more normal circumstances.  I think many people when they get a diagnoses of something serious react like you did.  They are in shock and may not be able to hang on to their emotional control.  You are still struggling with such difficult developments, that you are to be highly commended for being able to apologize for past behavior.  My goodnes, that is above and beyond what most could do.  I just hope that you can hang in there for some time to come.  Gerry  

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jmoqueen said...

Hope you have had a relaxing day.  Nemo on Ice sounds cool :o)