Thursday, March 13, 2008

Yesterday/I'm only 44!

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess, and in hopes it might help someone else as I do.I do not pretend nor imatate to be someone I'm not. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. And if there is something in what I write that "offends" you, options; don't read, or realize that this IS real life, and learn more about it! I also know that what I write in MY journal, that NOT everyone will agree with me and I don't expect them to! God bless you!......


 



Good morning! Praying that all of you are doing and feeling fine today!


Yesterday....I had an appointment to see my nurse practitioner (sort of like my gp). I wrote things down so I could remember what I wanted to ask her and also to let her know what has been going on with me. Yesterday was one of those days where I really had to struggle to even speak! I just couldn't think or remember almost everything! I even think that it was my worse day like that!
Now this morning I'm a bit better because I can remember more and my visit with the practitioner. It was very scary to be like that! I felt as though I knew nothing about me! If that makes any sense?
The visit went great, despite my own fall back. I just love this doctor. She's very understanding and spends a lot of time with you. That I like. :o) I told her about all of the swelling that I've been having. She pulled up my pants leg and pulled down my socks and said, "I can't believe how swollen you are! Well...I wasn't as swollen at all, well to me that is. She told me to wear those TED's socks and to stay in bed as much as I can. But get up and walk periodically. And, she also ordered me a portable oxygen thingy! :o( She wants me on oxygen all the time now.

Believe me, all kinds of things were just racing through my mind when she told me that. All of my labs came back great. My liver, kidneys, and my sugar was fine and in the proper range. That was great to hear! :o) Because usually my sugar is high, my liver is a bit high and my cholesterol is usually very high! Not this time. :o) So, those are some good things about my body. :o) I've gained 3 more pounds as well. I did let her know that this has been the way the water retention has been. She told me that it will do this until we can get it under controll with the proper doesage with my Lasix. Then the water won't be so raticle on me. Which makes since to me. I remember when I was taking care of my grandparents, this is what my grandmother went through as well. So I do understand her.

She also wrote me a script for more Darvocet. I have 2 refills on it and to take it 4-6 hours as need. I really thanked her for that! The Darvocet takes the edge off a bit. And believe me, taking the edge off is wonderful! She also wrote me two more scripts; one for a hot tub and the other for a lift chair! I told her that I have ten thousand dollers to spend each year to help me live my life with the proper needs. I took the book of my program with me so she could read this for herself. She hasn't heard of it and said how wonderful the program is. :o) Of course I agreed. The last script was to fax over to Legacy for the portable oxygen thingy. She wants more labs done, so I'm just going to ask my nurse when she comes today if she could do it. My physical therapist and my aide also come today. Whew! :o) And they all should be coming around the same time! LOL I'm going to feel pulled in all kinds of directions! lol

I've been having some problems with someone that continues to harrass me. I've known this person for many years now. And I've also never seen this side of them as well. I get pretty upset and I start to sweat, shake and my chest starts to hurt. I will not allow this person to be the one to take me away from my family!!! Yes, I have done everything to block them. I've even apoligized so many times that it feels like I need to start doing it in different languages! Because I did say some mean things as well. But all of this started months ago! As if I need this? I have removed this person out of my life! And you know what....I feel like I've taken the 30 years off of my shoulders! I just will not allow anyone to treat me in such a way. I've felt bullied and used. I was also told to not air their dirty laundry. I'm sorry but, I'm not. All I'm doing is writing about my life and what I go through, in my opinions.

My daughter and her husband got the house!!! YAY! :o) I am just so proud of them! Her husband has worked his but off and saved so they could buy instead of renting! :o) Thats why they moved in here for a couple of months. :o) The house is perfect for them! Her husband is really doing a great job of taking care of my daughter and grandbabies! :o) When I ask my daughter, I'll post some pictures! :o) And they're both 22! Wow! I'm ooozzzing happiness for them! :o)
Well, I need to go for now. This is the first time I've been on the computer since yesterday morning. And that was for about 1/2 hour. God bless all of you!


Do not be so slothful as to ask God to solve your difficulties, but never hesitate to ask him for wisdom and spiritual strength to guide and sustain you while you yourself resolutely and courageously attack the problems at hand.


 


12 comments:

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((((((LISA))))))))))))))))))I am glad the Doctor is helping you get thigns done for your health.That is good to hear.

ajquinn354 said...

Lisa, souhnds like a busy day with all those coming in to work with you.  You mentioned how you couldn't remember things you wanted to tell your nurse practitioner with everything you have going on --- why not get a small tape recorder dear and when you have these questions or thoughts record them and when you see your gp/doctors/pt, etc. health people you can just play the tape with your concerns or questions.  

It does tape time for the swelling to go down dear.  I also have CHF and have had the swelling, etc.  just hang in there.  Good hearing that you liver, kidney, sugar are in the proper ranges.

Allow yourself to just ignore the person who continues to harrass you dear. You need to put yourself first, ignore those who upset you and not let it get to you dear. This aggravation doesn't help your overall health any, so just tuned them out and don't let them get to you.

How great to hear that your daughter and hubby got their house, he sounds like a great man who cares for your daughter and grandkids. Has to be a great comfort knowing your daughter has a good hubby.
Arlene (AJ)

cherry2sweet2eat said...

What are TED socks for?

ndnhunny30 said...

Lisa,
Hi hun I have been so behind! I am so glad your numbers were all good at your appt.! Your own jacuzzi huh? I am so glad you will have that money to help you with what you need to be comfortable and ok. Congrats to your daughter and her hubby! How cool is that? They are so young and must be so determined. I am so happy for them, I cannot wait to see pics! I just wanted you to know I was thinking about you ;)
hugs, Robyn

lanurseprn said...

I'm glad you had a good visit with your Doc. Congrats to your kids on the house! That's wonderful! It looks like Nena found a good guy! I'm proud of them, too! That's quite an accomplishment!
Take care and get some rest...
Pam

nelishianatl said...

That is a huge deal on them getting the house, particularly at their age.  I cna hear your happiness about it too.  It is tragic about your bully.  You can only apologize so many times then after that, let it go.  IT's their problem.  I'm glad your numbers all came back good.

I loved the pictures of Kayden in the snow, and in the igloo.  They are priceless.

Nelishia
http://journals.aol.com/nelishianatl/PRAYINGANDBELIEVING/

pharmolo said...

I'm pleased you've been getting more upbeat since last weekend, Lisa. Bullies and trolls are best treated to a dose of silent contempt.

imgr8phil said...

Glad you are doing a little better.  That is good news about them getting the house, I'm sure they are excited.  Have a good Friday and take care.

Phil

dca721 said...

Hi Lisa,
I am glad you like your lady dr.
Congrats on the house for your daughter!
Sorry I haven't forgotten about you,
just haven't been on the pc much since Jen died.
I've been pretty much numb.
I have/had a friend, we got into it again yesterday,
she's no friend of mine either.
She was really shitty to me yesterday and I thought,
kick me when I'm down already.
I am just up to go to the bathroom.
better get back to bed, 6:30 comes quickly and is torture.
Love,
Donna

texastames35 said...

thanks a bunch lisa , YOUR BEING BLESSED AND LOVED , YOUR NOT ALONG , GOD LOVES YOU AND SO DO I , THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHAREING WITH US , IM GLADED THINGS ARE GOING BETTER , YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS ARE THERE FOR YOU AND SUPPORT YOU , IT HELPS LOTS , IM GLADED THEY GOT THE HOUSE GOOD NEWS , YES , THINK + AND BE AS HAPPY AS YOU CAN BE , TIME IS TO SHORT , GOD MOVES IN MANY WAYS , PRAYERS DAILY AND TC OF YOU , BIG HUGSSSSSS HI FAMILY , THANKS A LOT FOR ALL U DO , GOD BLESSINGS TO ALL , TAKE TIME OUT FOR YOU , AND OTHERS , YOUR DOING GOOD , KEEP  SMILING , TAKE CARE AND PLAY WITH THOSE CHILDEN , THIER GIFTS , LAUGH OFFEN , SMILE , KEEP  IN TOUCH , LOVES YOU , THANK YOU TROOPS WE LOVE AND SUPOORT YOU ALL , HAVE WONDERFUL WEEK AND YEAR AND HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE , YW TY , SENDING OUR PRAYERS AND LOVE , GBEVERYONE , HI  THERRE , HUGS ,

jmoqueen said...

That's great news about your daughter and her hubby getting the house :o)  Sounds confusing that you are told to rest yet walk about!!!!

Jenny

http://journals.aol.co.uk/Jmoqueen/MyLife

gehi6 said...

I do wish you could comfort from a hot tub.  Your doctor sounds very good. Reassuring and you are finding out what is good about your stats, so that will encourage you.  she seems to be telling you just what you thought, that you needed to get up and try to walk some, but keep the oxygen going.  I hate it when substitute people mess up as that one nurse did with your pills.  You need to be rassured at this stage of the game that you are doing everything medically possible   Gerry