Monday, November 19, 2007

I just need to talk...

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess, and in hopes it might help someone else as I do.I do not pretend nor imatate to be someone I'm not.I have to be careful, apparently someone are way too obsessed with 'my' life. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. And if there is something in what I write that "offends" you, options; don't read, or realize that this IS real life, and get out of your plastic bubble and learn more about it! I also know that what I write in MY journal, that NOT everyone will agree with me and I don't expect them to! God bless you!......


 



Good morning/afternoon! I'm in hopes that all of  you are doing good today!


The graphic above is very true to me. I had the best news this morning! But, I think it should be, "Chance made us friends, hearts made us sisters! :o) Well...we all know what I mean! :o)



My physical therapist came. She wanted to see my right arm before she started with the deep tissue massage. She seen it and said that she's not going to touch it are get near it while doing the massage. There are too many clots there on my inner elbow. Like I was trying to show in my pictures. Then she asked if I had more bruises. I showed her my left leg. She said that she can't do that leg as well! She looked me over to see if I had any more bruises. I don't....thank God! She said that the ones on my left leg are more blood clots! I just started to shake! (my nerves and the not knowing) I also told her about my left arm being half numb. She told me that was just the MS. Ok...I can deal with that. She told me to keep an eye on those blood clots. Um....yeah....that crossed my mind to do already! Good Grief! I asked her what I'm suppose to do about all of these blood clots! Like do I call my doctor or what? She just told me to rest and watch them and put heat on them! Then she asked me if my doctor or anyone has taken a blood test to see why this is happening.....I told her no. No one has. I just told her about my doctors appointment that I had (the doctor I hate), and what he called it on my right inner elbow. She agreed with what he said it was. But no one is doing anything about it! I mean, isn't there something that can be done to like stop them from going to other parts of my body? You would think there is! It just seems that everyone is just so blouse' about this. But I know how I feel and once again I'm having a hard time explaining things. Yes, they are very painful. I've told everyone that. I do not have enough washclothes to put on every one of them! I just don't understand. Thats all.

I'm don't want to come off as having a pity party for me.....I'm just plain worried, thats all. I'm taking the blood clots seriously and no one else is. Am I wrong to take it seriously because I'm getting more and more of them in other places of my body?

My daughter and her husband and my grandson came over yesterday and they went ahead and spent the night. :o) My grandson is so onry! He made me laugh! lol He and my daughter were doing crafts. He loved it! :o)
I slept out here in my hospital bed and they slept in my other bed.
Tonight, my daughter and one of her friends and I are going to get our hair cut! Yikes! I'm so picky when it comes to someone other then me, to cut my hair. I've had too many bad experiances. lol It's just hair and it will grow! :o)
I'm going to go now, my daughter is getting ready to leave. They will be down south (Xenia) until Sunday. So it was nice to be able to spend this extra time with them! :o)
Have the best day that you can make it! :o)



 



16 comments:

Anonymous said...

I sure hope you feel better and get some things set u your way. IM glad you have your duagher around

Anonymous said...

Awwwwww Lisa I am concerned about your arm, I wish your doctor would check your arm out instead of being a jerk, Love You Lisa XO

Anonymous said...

Lisa, I will say it again.. go back to the doctor and tell him that you want to know every way there is to treat this. Don't let anyone play with your life. -Missy

Anonymous said...

You have to go back to the dr, Lisa. Too serious, too risky. Have you tried Journals Chat?

Anonymous said...

As I told you before, you need to go back to the Dr, & ask him about something to help dissolve the clots.
Sug

Anonymous said...

Well, get more washcloths for one.  Have you let the doctor know that you have more, or that your PT believes you have more?  Yes, they can and do travel through our circulatory system.  Sometimes people can get medicine to help thin them, but I don't know if that'd be applicable for you.  Wishing you well with them, and I can imagine that they do hurt.

Anonymous said...

I'm concerned about your arm too.
Wondering why your not on blood thinners?
Love you,
Donna

Anonymous said...

I do not understand why they don't have you on blood thinners or something.  This doesn't make sense to me just using washcloths.  Maybe you should see a hematologist????  I say extra prayers for you.
Hugs,
D

Anonymous said...

It sounds like you are just going to have to put your foot down and demand they pay attention to these clots - it is not normal to have blood clots all over your limbs.  You need to go on blood thinners or something.  I don't see how keeping a warm compress on them is going to solve the problem.  Tell them you want answers, don't let them blow you off about it.
Lisa

Anonymous said...

I can't imagine what it is like to go to the doctors with a problem and for them to not be able to do something about it.  My colleague is currently going through a similiar situation as she is suffering with her back but they can't do anything for her!!  My heart goes out to you xx  Hope your daughter and family are ok xx

Jenny

http://journals.aol.co.uk/Jmoqueen/MyLife

Anonymous said...

awwwwwwwwww hon I do hope things get worked out for you... I wish so bad I could something
hugs
d

Anonymous said...

You have a right to be worried and you should demand some answers.  Not knowing is adding stress to your life, stress you don't need.  Hope you will be feeling better soon but to me it looks like you need something for those clots to make them go away.  Take care.

Phil

Anonymous said...

You should be worried! I am very shocked that the doctors are not more worried. I do hope that they go away and that you get to feeling better soon.
Kelli
http://journals.aol.com/kamdghwmw/noonmom

Anonymous said...

I'm very worried about you girlie girl.  You need to be treated for what is going on.  Go to another doctor if this one refuses to care about your treatment.  Remember you only have one body and one life, it is up to you to make sure you get what you need.  Luv ya!

Allison

Anonymous said...

How is your hair cut.  I can't ever let mine grow. Wish I could. You have nice hair Lisa.

Some blood clots are serious.  I would want them checked out if it was me!  But perhaps some people or some doctors don't think that's what they are?   The way they seem so blazae about yours, I wonder if your doctor really thinks they ARE clots.   I dunno, I am just guessing.  I can't figure it out.  Doesn't seem like wash cloth therapy is enough, but I am not a nurse, so I don't know.

You know you really need a family doctor that you can relate to.  I had to go through a mess of doctors before I found one that was right for me.  It was work to find her!  I think you need one you can take to and get answers from or who will send you to someone who can give you answers if they don't know. Even if you have to go out of town.  How big is your town, anyway?

Just my 2 cents worth here.  Hope you love your new hair do! Merry

Anonymous said...

Lisa, I understand your concern about the blood clots, are you on a blood thinner, thought you said in the past you were.  That would help.  But, to be on the safe side believe you need to go to the ER and have them checked.  Then like your other readers would give some great thought to checking into finding a new caring family doctor.  Take care, don't overuse your arm, know you like sending your journal words out to all of us, just do the note on how you are and not the other until you know your arms/legs etc. are ok.  Your health comes before anything my dear.  Arlene (AJ)