This is an entry from my other journal that I write in because at times I don't feel that I can be as open in this one anymore.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
I have so much that I want to say. But where to begin? And to get others to understand where I'm coming from. Once again, I say this all the time, "You don't know how YOU would react!" Thats one of my pet peeves. Hearing someone say, "Why didn't you/they?!" It's not like that! You, yourself would react in the only way at that time and it's a split second desicion. *In other words, you have NO idea what it's like until it happens to you or you've gone through it!* Make sense? I truly hate it when someone will say to me, "Why do you act differently, Why have you changed, Why are you acting like one of *My illnesess* has me and not I have it?" Etc... You know, Just shut up and let me go through my own grieving! How do you think you would react? Walk in my shoes for 5 minutes! Ok? Instead of hearing all of this stupid negative stuff, it would be nice to hear, "Hey, I'm proud of you and the way you're handling it, or, I can really understand why you've changed!" Once again just because I do not have an open wound gushing with blood, does not mean I'm not in pains and, " Yes, I could use a friend right now, or, Thank you for understanding me!"