.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess, and in hopes it might help someone else as I do.I do not pretend nor imatate to be someone I'm not. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. And if there is something in what I write that "offends" you, options; don't read, or realize that this IS real life, and learn more about it! I also know that what I write in MY journal, that NOT everyone will agree with me and I don't expect them to! God bless you!......
Good morning! In hope it finds you all well and doing fine.
Yesterday went pretty smooth. My nurse came first. She was a bit late because she needed to be here when my Home Health Aide came. There is a Care Plan for any Home Health Aide that comes in this house. They're suppose to have a copy as well. My nurse needed to see if she was doing what she is suppose to be doing to help me. I told her how much I really like this one. I ask of her to wash and iron my bed sheets. I haven't been able to iron and I really miss it. I like to have my things ironed! :o) I know, I'm a bit odd! lol This Aide does it perfect! I told my nurse that this Aide is a hard worker and does everything. She's young, so she has the energy. :o) Plus, she knows how to laugh and just have fun! I love that! :o) So, after my nurse had seen how we interact together and if she is doing the things on the list, she went ahead and left.
My Aide left at 3:00. Then I was waiting on the food delivery guy to come. I was getting tired and just not feeling up to speed and I really needed a nap. So, I just went in and sat in my bed and rested a bit. It seemed that I had to use my inhaler a lot more yesterday as well. I was getting out of breath a lot. Part of CHF. gggrrr! The inhaler does help, I can feel my lungs expand a bit more when I take in a deep breath. Oh...I almost forgot about this. When my nurse comes, she has to also do certain things no matter what. I had to get weighed and I have lost 3 pounds!!! YAY! :o) Within the amount of when I started taking a double dose of the Lasix. :o) I'm still swelling up, and she doesn't understand it, I don't either.....but I'm seeing progress! :o) Thats the good thing. :o)
The food delivery guy didn't come until around 6-6:30! He had to take care of something important to him...so thats why he was late. He is really a nice guy, he even brings a dog bone for Madia each week too! :o) He really likes her...who couldn't love her! And its too cute...she knows he's here by the sound of the truck! :o) Then she goes to the front door and waits on him! lol :o) She's so cute! I'm so glad we have her!
Today, my Physical Therapist was suppose to come, but I called to cancel because I'm not feeling very well. He usually comes at 10:00. I guess how I'm feeling is just not up to par. My energy level is very low and I woke up with the shakes again. Oh yay. Thats no fun. Well, it is when I do something stupid because it makes me laugh! lol I'm always doing something stupid and I just have to laugh! I even make my daughte, son and my grandson! I don't think that my sil really knows how to 'take' me! lol It's funny, he and I can go back and forth with each other! He's funny! My daughter just gives me this look like, "He's not funny so stop laughing!" LOL I told her that she married to him so thats why its not funny to her! :o)
I've had a few things that were and still are, on my mind now for months. I can't shake it. I've done something that you can never get back. I've really hurt someone that I love. There are no words that can explain how I feel. But more importantly, it's how this person feels. I handled something in the wrong way and I can never get it back.
I'm actually sick to my stomach over this. Because I 'know' what I did was wrong and how it effected the other person. I guess I didn't think that what I did was as bad as it truly was. Keyword here is; "think."
I took 2 Dorvicets to help with my pains. I can feel the edge coming down a bit. It's my back/spine, hips and upper thighs. As always.
I'm going for now, need to take a walk. I'll use my walker because it's safer.
Have a great day! God bless all of you!