Good morning! I hope that everyone is doing good today!
I was reading Pam's journal this morning and I think she's made a very good point! I agree with her as well.
When we write in our journals, we aren't doing it to entertain others! We are writing about our lives. And too bad if it isn't a "Happy Go Lucky" Journal! So what! I write what ever I want to in this journal, and in my opinion, if you don't like it then don't read it. I'm not going to entertain anyone. I need this journal and the other one that I have to release! I really don't have anyone that I can talk to all the time, so I do it here. I'm actully 'letting you' into my personal life of all the things that I go through.
Someone is leaving J-Land because they think the journals are 'too sad!' What I have to say about that one is; I'm not at all sorry for what I do write in my journal. I have good days and I have bad days....everyone does, and you know what? It's called LIFE! How about that! Maybe you just don't like facing the truth. The reason that I 'stopped writing' awhile back is because I actually let people just like this, get to me. Because I wasn't uplifting enough. I let someone upset me very badly! Then I stopped. I got so many comments telling me that 'they would be here' for me when I decide to come back. When I did came back, I realized that I lost a lot of readers. I can tell by my counter and thats how I know! Yet again, I got hurt. But again, somehow I allowed it to hurt me.
I'm waiting on my mom to come over. She's taking me to my doctor today. So I know I'm going to have a great day already....with my mom! :o)
Yesterday, I had a bad headach/migrain. I couldn't get rid of it for the life of me! I took a nap and took the migrain pills and nothing. :o) Good grief! After I watched Big Brother, I just went to bed. :o)
Myswelling is still happening. It's in my legs now. My ankles and my feet are starting now. It's not at all happening as fast as it did before! Very thankful for that one! I'm going to start documenting when I swell. Pictures and measurments.
I will be able to tell my doctor better that way. Plus, it will help me to remember. My memory has gotten so much worse! gggrr! I can be in the middle of a sentance and all of the sudden I can't remember what I was even saying! I've been asking the person I'm talking to, what I had just said to help 'jog' my memory! When writing in this, I can just sit here or get up and walk to remember what I wanted to say.
It kind of makes me feel so stupid! But I do know that it's just something that goes along with a few of my illnesses. They need to take turns instead of doing it to me all at once! lol :o) Kidding! :o)
I'm still having those 'electrical' shock feelings that jolts my body pretty good! I'm thinking it's the MS doing it. The next neurologist appointment is a few weeks. Thats not that far away.
I should go and get ready. <sigh>
Oh....I wanted to thank you for signing my guest book! :o) Also, thank all of you for commenting as well. It always helps me. I love the feedback. And all of your ideas. :o) I hope you have a happy and great day! :o)
....if you haven't noticed, I'm one that goes with the beat of my own drum! :o)