Sunday, February 10, 2008

Where did everyone go/and why?

Good morning! I hope that everyone is doing good today!

I went to bed early again last night. I got bored. My daughter and her cute little family went to visit their friends last night. :o) There wasn't anything that I thought was good to watch on tv., so I just signed off and to bed I went. Again, I slept 12 hours!
By the way, I did tell my nurse about the hard time I've been having with memory. Again, I have to wait until tomorrow when I go see my gp. I thought that yesterday was Feb. Monday 11th! Thats tomorrow! For some reason I can't seem to remember certain things. Thats what boggles my mind. I can remember stuff from years ago, but not things that have recently happened! I don't get it.
Does this happen to anyone? I'd like to hear about what happens with you. I'm also doing my best by trying to memorize things. And to remember things in a certain amount of time. I'm so much slower now.

I know it's not my medicine's because this was going on well before I was given a new one.
This is all still a struggle for me. I still feel waist deep and very overwhelmed. My brain and my soul will keep fighting back and forth. My soul is me, the "Who I am," and my brain is doing what it's suppose to be doing, fighting it! There's a black and white and also a gray part I seem to deal with. Of course the white is great, but recently I don't get to be in the white for very long. The black is what it is! The gray is nothing but just being! As gray is, in the middle and just being. This is such a fight between me, my soul and my brain.
I'm sorry about not getting to all of your journals. I just can't anymore. Since I'm not visiting all of your journals, is that why I don't have many comments? All of the sudden it has made me feel that I've done something wrong again. I am very sorry that I'm not able to make it to all of your journals. I do know that some people won't read and leave a comment if you don't there's. It's not a big deal, just curious as to why things suddenly changed. I was just counting on my friends to help me through some of this.
I suppose I'm asking too much. When I started this journal, I wanted to make sure that I could at least help 1 person by writing what I go through. Now, I'm needing your help!
Moving on----------
I've gained 20 pounds! I weighed myself this morning because my face looks swollen again. My feet and ankles aren't very bad at all. Whew! But I'll still keep my legs up. Bummer.
Kayden and Madia were playing togehter again yesterday. :o) It is so cute to watch them. lol Kayden really likes Madia's fur! He 'twirls' his momma's hair and mine and when hes standing and watching something and Madia is right at his side...he'll start to 'twirl' her hair/fur! LOL It's cute.
My hands and fingers are starting to hurt a bit. Time to finish.
I do want to thank all of you for your comments. God bless all of you.

Life is like a coin, you can spend it anyway you wish,

but you can only spend it once.



specialadyfink said...

Well if I only visited those that visit mine-it would be a short trip around,LOL.Sometimes I feel like I'm poking my big mouth and opinion in where I shouldn' I figure it best to keep my trap shut.Did you ever hit post and as  it is posting  think-maybe I shouldn't have said that-maybe that is not what they wanted to I'm still here dear gal,listening,sympathizing and still your cyber-friend.

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sugarsweet056 said...

Just popped in to say Good Morning & wish you a blessed day.
I have sooo many journals to visit, I don't always leave comments, I peek in & if something strikes me...I comment, if not, I'm off to the next one. LOL People do that with me too. So, don't take it personally, just write for yourself. If people comment, they do, if they don't, then that's ok too. Remember I'm here, just don't always comment.

astoriasand said...

Hi Lisa I comment whenever I can some days I do not have the energy or the time to go to every journal I read.I have over 100 people on my list and it's quiet a lot.I think the same of all my j/land friends whether or not i comment.It happens to be theres not been many alerts today so thats perhaps why I have come to you as yours is one of them today.I thnk we all have a fear are we being forgotton about when people don't come regular,but  everyone is so nice in j/land I do  not think any of us would leave comments out  intentionaly.WE all have to do what we can and when we tire we have to stop,if or not we have been through them all.I hope today is a better day for you than yesterday.Prayers continueing.Take Care God Bless Kath astoriasand

arlenes627 said...

I hope all works out for you. The internet has been so quiet all over the place and I was offline for a few days and getting stuph together in my apartment also, relaxing so as not to strain my back. Blessings to you.

chat2missie said...

Enjoy your Sunday.

nightmaremom said...

Lisa I wouldn't take it personal.  I visit and comment on entries....  I have over 200 on alerts and several make numerous entries a day.  If I commented on each entry for each journal I'd never be away from my computer let alone able to do an entry in my own journal or do my tags.  Add in working f/t, running a household, visiting my dad in the hospital with his broken hip...  you get the picture I'm sure.  Know I'm here and I do stop in.. and I do care!
hugs and love

cherry2sweet2eat said...

everyone lose track of days sometimes.

swmpgrly said...

I think sometimes our minds are so busy that we cant take it all in.

jckfrstross said...

i always read just don't always leave a comment:) have a good week


hugsdoodlewacky said...

(((((((((((((((((LISA)))))))))))))))Know I am always praying for you.

ajquinn354 said...

Lisa don't take it personally if someone of the j-landers don't get back to you every day.....everyone is busy, just part of life dear. Keep your spirits up, we all think of you, just can't always comment...I know for me, I like to read your comments of how your day has gone and will comment more so than if you put video's up or jokes. Memory wise, we all have those days, here's a laugh for you.  Was reading a book and a friend was commenting on how she keeps forgetting things, she was just losing it and her friend said, "Dear you aren't losing it you are just having a CRAFT day and she said what is that I've never heard of it" her friend said your are having a Can't Remember A Thing day, happens to all of us.  I know I have lots of those, lol.  Arlene (AJ)

pharmolo said...

Good to hear from you again, Lisa, but sorry to note that you've put on 20 lb in weight - which is probably water. Don't take it too hard if not everybody comments.

heavenlybama said...

Don't take the commenting/not commenting personal.  I have about 80 on alerts down from 120.  As you see, I'm always behind.  Sometimes I get overwhelmed and have to delete.  My health probs have gotten worse lately and my job has gone from part time to full time because of tax season.  I feel bad that I can't get around to everyone I care about and keep up with their lives. It's just getting hard these days and yes, my memory is like yours.  They say if you read alot to learn something, it improves your memory.  Maybe when you have to spend time in bed, read or maybe do some crafts to keep your mind active.

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jmoqueen said...

Sometimes I don't comment on every entry but it doesn't mean I think any less of you xx  My memory is useless and I tend to forget stuff that I've just done ~ you have to put it down to the fact that none of it was interesting and that's why you can't remember it ;-)