Monday, February 11, 2008

Logging

I feel the need to log this. As you know, I was diagnosed with having congestive heart failure.
This may sound odd but, when I was 'told' that I do have this, I reacted so much differently. I didn't realize the impact it would have on me. It seemed to just 'bounce' around in my head.
I had that doctors appointment today. She looked at me feet and they were only the 'normal' swelling. To me, it was nothing different.
She read the copies of the test results that I got when I was in the ER, which was 1/28/08. She showed me the results and let me know what they mean. My white blood count was high. Probably still fighting off the cold. My liver is fine and so is my cholesteral. I'm glad to hear that. The last test result on the page was something I've never seen before. It said that I had congestive heart failure. I had my daughter with me so I didn't react in a way that I really wanted to.
To hear it and to see it on paper is so very different. And once again, more life changes. She gave me a script for the Lasix and she wants me to stay on them. She also gave me a script for an inhaler for when I get out of breath. I am also to go through another test that shows the oxygen in my blood. She is doing that to see if I should be on my oxygen 24/7. I'm also suppose to go to the hospital for more blood work.
I don't know when I'll be able to do that. We are really getting hit with a snow storm and it's expected to get up to 10 inches of snow. Bummer.
I'm scared. I want to cry. I don't like the way I'm feeling. I'm also going to see my heart doctor again. Not looking forward to that.
When I got home after the doctor visit, I started feeling very anxious! Dh calmed me down. I'm so tired. All I want to do is to just go to bed and stay asleep. No kidding. My body is giving out on me. My soul needs to find a better vesel to live in. I'm ready now. Thank you for listening.



 



17 comments:

geocachelinda66 said...

Some people can live with CHF for a long time.  I pray for you and hope you will be alright.  Linda

specialadyfink said...

Hon-don't give up like that!!!You are frightened of the words-they hit you hard-but remember-positive thinking has a lot to do with ones well being...
huggies
connie

hugsdoodlewacky said...

(((((((((((((LISA))))))))))))))))))))I am so sorry you have to go through all this.

elmofromoz said...

DITTO to connie.... Never give up!!!!

sugarsweet056 said...

Here for you sweetie! Always have you in my prayers. {{}}
God bless,
Sug

chat2missie said...

Sending you a big hug! Congestive heart failure is not a death sentance!!  Hope you have a good day.  My gosh, 10 inches of snow...............thank goodness we're only getting 3 inches here today.
Missie

springangel235 said...

Always have you in prayers.....wow, that is a lot of snow...hugs,
Joyce

ajquinn354 said...

Lisa, a lot of folks have congested heart failure and it can be treated with meds.  Don't over worry yourself about this.  I've had congested heart failure going on 8 years, I take the meds infcluding the lasix and I feel fine dear.  You will also, so don't get yourself worked up over this.  So many folks have this and do just fine.
Be careful, know your area is getting lots of snow. Arlene (AJ)

momiscool2 said...

Hugs - I'll keep you in my prayers!
love,
Michelle

jmoqueen said...

oh lisa ((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))) we're here for you xx

Jenny

http://journals.aol.co.uk/Jmoqueen/MyLife

heavenlybama said...

Ditto to what Arlene said.  Praying for you hun.
Hugs,
D

pharmolo said...

Congestive cardiac failure is a major diagnosis, Lisa. The word 'congestive' says it all in a way. If you continue to experience swelling and breathing difficulties, I'd suggest to discuss an increase in dose of the Lasix. We're here for you, but you know that.

imgr8phil said...

When you mentioned that I felt as you do but on the outside looking in.  That isn't a great condition to have.  I pray for you and hope that things will be better for you.  Take care.

Phil

swmpgrly said...

my god you are way too young and pretty to be going through this.
I am also 44 and I now feel guilty for complaining about arthritis in my big toe.
I need to realize how lucky I am to have that and not something life threatning.
Keep the faith Lisa , prayers are coming your way.

malagutigrrl said...

DON'T YOU DARE!!!

ndnhunny30 said...

Hi hun! I am so behind in entries but wanted you to know I am still here ;) I cannot imagine going through what you do on a regular basis and still you manage to  keep on smiling. You are an inspiration to me sweetie! My mom has MS and I know she has went through many emotions.  I just wanted to let you know that I am not gone. Your not that lucky to get rid of me that easy lmao! Keep your chin up and keep being real ;) If anyone left your journal because of that they had no business here in the first place!
Love you and hugs, Robyn

gehi6 said...

Oh Lisa, you have fought so hard.  You deserve to rest, but just for a few hours.  I hope we can keep you with us a while longer.  You have been such a precious contact, an inspiration. My tears are falling.  I can't help it.  You have described your condition with such effectiveness from day to day that I have been able to feel your pain when I am reading.  You have a great gift for life in the middle of sickness.  Gerry