Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Up late and need to talk

I'm up and can't get to sleep. gggrrrr! I'm not going to get any better if I can't get the rest I need to help my immune system. But...thats fibromyalgia for ya'. :o)
I have been having a lot of problems with my health lately and it has been weighing on my mind. Everything that I have is genetic. It skiped a generation and hit me and my sister! My younger sister has fibromyalgia as well, but not as bad. Thankfully the doctor found it in time so she isn't in a lot of pain. :o) Whew! :o) I don't wish this pain on anyone! Not even any enimies! Today, the bottoms of my feet have been numb and painful to walk. I get a sharp "shocking" feeling in my back/spine. Which is telling me that my spine is getting worse. The tumors and spurs are touching my nerves on my spine. Ouchie! :o) My hands aren't doing so well. I can barely write anymore. lol...I'm sure the people that I sent post cards to could tell that! :o) They have been cramping up and wanting to go into a fist...if that makes sense?! I've been doing hand and finger exercises to try to keep my hands from going into a fist. lol....it's funny to see me do that one! :o) I've been very clumsy lately as well. Which worries me because I fall a lot, and I can't have that happen. Usually when I fall, I break something.....like my feet and ankles! lol...I've been on crutches and had so many casts on! lol My right ankle...the last time I broke it, the doctor didn't set the bones properly and I know have a piece of bone just "floating" around....you can feel it! Yuck! It's pretty gross! My knee caps go out of place all the time and I have to put them back on my own! Now that turns my stomach every time I have to do that! Yuck! ;o) My massage therapist has to put them back when she gives me the deep tissue massages. lol...I think it kind of grosses her out too! :o) I'm used to that pain. Well....I'm used to a lot of my pains....I don't know if thats good or bad! :o) Because half the time I don't know whats what! :o) Could it be the fibro...or the ms...or the arthritis...or what ever else I have! :o) It's just a guessing game at times.
Right now...I'm not able to sleep because I haven't gotten tired yet! Thats part of my sleep disorders! lol...and I have 3 of those! So...who knows which sleep disorder is causing it! lol :o) Again...I'm guessing! :o) Like with this cold/flu thingy...I thought I was better, but today I was back to the way I was feeling a few days ago! Good Grief! :o) Fibromyalgia has your immune system down anyway, then the lack of sleep added to that makes a mixture of how I'm feeling and the pains I'm going through still! :o) Gosh...it really gets confusing! lol :o) But...I know....this too shall pass! :o) Just waiting and riding the wave that has been thrown at me! :o)
Well....I think I'm going to try again to get some sleep. Thank you so much for all of your comments! :o) They get me through my days! :o) God bless all of you....He has me! :o)

22 comments:

stevietwain said...

HUUUUUUUUUUUGE hugs hun!!

I know I've said this before, but I'd do anything to take away your pain! No-one should go through this!!

As for your handwriting in postcard, it looked great to me babes!

Lv Stevie
xxx

lisa41076 said...

Lisa, I wish I could see you on my buddy list sometimes, we could have an IM conversation !!!!!!!!! Hey go to my journal and read the entry I just posted a little while ago , my friend Robin came up with the idea of a magnet swap, her journal These are the days of our lives is listed in my other journal's section on the front page of my journal, thought you might like to do that so email Robin if you would ok, Hugs Lisa P.S. Hope you feel better  !!!!!!!!!!

trishaham said...

Lisa, I wish there were something, Anything that I could do to ease your pain. One of the most important people in my life also suffers from  fibromyalgia. It  is such a debilitating disease. She is a mere shell of what she was even a year ago. I was totally unaware of this disease until my Sis came down with it about 3 yrs ago. It is so misunderstood, as I am sure you are more then aware of. I will keep you in my prayers. You keep on doing what you are doing.

God less,
Tia

Tias Tales

trishaham said...

Ending should have been,
God Bless.


sorry

siennastarr said...

I hope you finally got to sleep, and will feel much better tomorrow!  Sorry for all the pain you've been feeling!  

God Bless
Hugs,
Jackie

http://journals.aol.com/siennastarr/Hopefloats/

sangrialel said...

Lisa I hope you are able to get some good rest soon.  Linda

xomywayox said...

I truly hope & pray that your pains go away forever. I feel for you, pumpkin.

Cioa Bella...Brenda

The post card was lovely.....

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heathermarie3073 said...

I hope you were able to get some sleep finally.  You certainly are going through a lot, and it's amazing that you keep such a positive additude through it all.  You are an amazing woman and I'm so glad I met you through J-Land.  I hope today is a better one for you.
xoxo, Heather

sugarsweet056 said...

You know that I know what pain is!!! So, I send my hopes that today will be a better day! :)
Hugs, Sugar

pookyluvsu said...

You're in my prayers. Feel better and try and get some rest.

Hugs, Angela

kamdghwmw said...

I wish the best of luck on getting some sleep.
kelli
http://journals.aol.com/kamdghwmw/noonmom

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pharmolo said...

1.30 am, you must be in pain. Your description is very vivid, and I hope you have some means of alleviating it. Keep your spirits high!

poobigirl said...

I sure hope you're feeling better and that you've gotten some rest. Thank you so much for visiting my bloggie and liking it. Means a lot to me. Hope to get to know you lots better. I'm sorry that you have so much pain.
Much love, Luann (Eric's Mommie)
http://journals.aol.com/poobigirl/living-with-autism/
http://journals.aol.com/poobigirl/daystar/

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tendernoggle said...

Hope you were able to get back to sleep...That is a bad feeling, not bein able to get a good nights sleep.
Take car now,
love ya,
carlene

xxroxymamaxx said...

This reminded me of when my daughter was a baby and she was sick for about 3 months with a cold/flu like symptoms.  Nothing would clear it up, antiobiotics, OTC meds, nothing.  We finally took her to an allergist and found out she was allergic to Oatmeal.  She had been eating oatmeal at my moms for breakfast every day.  Soon as she stopped eating it...she got better.  

But the moral of this is....she was sick for so long that she just got used to it and acted as if a runny nose and coughing constantly was part of her little life. I hope they find a cure for fibromyalgia.  What suffering you have to endure.  You will be in my prayers.  

Sorry this comment turned into an entry. lol   Putting you on alerts! : )  Hugs and GBU, Shelly

xxroxymamaxx said...

P.S.  I love your sidebar!

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astra1547 said...

i do hope you feel better soon...best wishes and take care!

Astra!

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