Saturday, October 22, 2005

I didn't sleep very well at all last night. I was in bed for 7 hours, but I didn't sleep that long. My bed is all disheveled, it looks like a tornado hit my bed. It is so hard to actually find a good spot that doesn't hurt too bad to lay on to get to sleep. I was in alot of pain yesterday. If I'm in that much again today, I'll have to take a pain pill. I had a hard time walking again, and putting my arms up, like to grab something. I had spasms everywhere. Maybe this weather has something to do with this flare up. I had to go out in it yesterday to pick up a script. After I got home, thats when I got so much worse. Just have to ride it out. :o) Nothing planned at all today. Just to rest. But, that doesn't mean that I can't have visiters. :o) I hope all is doing well, and God bless you all. :O)

I thought I'd write some more. I've had some things on my mind. I'm sitting here alone, and can't stop thinking. My husband and I talked last night and the night before about our financial situation. The whirlpool has really cost so much more already then getting a hot tub would have. :o( And it's not even close to being all the way done yet. I should have tried harder on finding someon to donate a hot tub for me. I really feel pretty bad. I was writing out the grocery list, and it is now just 3 of us here, and he told me how strapped we really are. :o( I had no idea. All I eat is special k cereal with skim milk, toast, and smart ones microwave dinners. I drink water and have coffee in the mornings. My son works all the time and isn't here that much. I feel kind of guilty for not trying harder. My husband is a work-aholic, and works so much over time every week just to make ends meet. I really don't like seeing him so stressed out like this. :o( I still have that script for the hot tub, and I think I'm going to go ahead and try harder to find someone that will donate. Then I can tell him that he doesn't have to spend more money. That would make me feel so much better. I love him too much to see him stress over the things he does, because of me. Sorry....but I just had to get this off of my chest to help myself feel better with my muscle spasms. I don't feel better all the way at all until I can find a way to help him. I will keep looking.

..............................Obstacles don’t have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don’t turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.

-Michael Jordan

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