Sunday, January 15, 2006


I didn't do much at all yesterday. My "numbness" from our loss is starting to wear off of me. So I'm really starting to feel all the pain all over my body once again, but far much worse. I woke up with such a backache and a headache which made the day seem very long. Nothing I took for the pain helped. My best friend came over for awhile, which always brightens up my days. :o) My husband and his dad were in the basement all day working on a room. Which entailed a lot of hammering and sawing. It was loud to me. I was able to take a nap when the noise eased up.

My sister and her boy friend came over again! :o) When I woke up from my nap, they were here, and so was my neice. :o) Nice to wake up to. :o) They planned on staying the night with us, which I love when my family will come to do. :o) This house is a third of the size house we used to live in, but we can still have enough room and accomadations for all. :o) The guys watch football last night and my sister and I and my neice watched a movie in my bedroom. :o) It was fun. :o) After the movie, I was really tired and my neice and I went to bed. :o) I truly love having family around. :o)

My husband and I are still having are moments with our loss in our family. :o( Tomorrow it will be a week now. :o( Pray for us to get through that day. Some may understand and some may not, but it is very hard on us still.

I don't have anything planned for today. My sister did mention that she might know of a place that might be able to donate a hot tub to me. I would like to check it out if possible. Tomorrow I need to call that other number in Dayton about the motorized wheel chair and a ramp. There is still light at the end of the tunnel. I've been working on getting my medical needs for months now. It's great to see that I am getting closer. :o) I was once told by someone that they would help me, but they don't help those that don't help themselves and manage our money right. I never understood that, because I've been doing this the whole time by myself, and with some help from my friends and family. And our money mangament is we pay our bills and go to the grocery, and have very little left. My husband uses what we do have left to help fix this house. It needed to be rewired, the walls are very bad, and so much more that would take up too much room. And he still isn't done. We've lived here now for a year and 2 1/2 months. The person that said this to us doesn't truly know what our money situation is. Oh well. We are getting by. :o) God knows. :o)

Thank you for your comments and God bless you all. :o)

.......................Morale is self-esteem in action.

                                           -Avery Weisman


misswings60 said...

Your always in my prayers honey. I love you, and I hope this day won't be to hard on you. Tell your sister I love her too. Blessings to all in your house.

jeanno43 said...

I do hope that you feel better soon. I am glad you have your family around you.  Yes, loss is an awful thing. I have not felt well since our loss and am still shedding a few tears now and again and so is Mike.

seraphoflove9001 said...

Thank you so much Jeannette. You are such a dear friend. Yes, my husband and I are really having a hard day today. Tomorrow will have been a week now. I think a lot of my physical pain has to do with our loss as well. Taking care of myself is what I need to do. Some much needed rest. :o) Again, thank you Jeanette. :o) You take care as well.

dianneclewien said...

Hey Lisa,
I don't know who your family was that you lost, but I can tell you from my experience, that when I lost my sister some 11 years ago, it was very tough and I still think her on an almost daily basis. Not sure the numbness from that loss has gone yet.
I have a really bad backache today as I do most days now. I can tell it's the fibro as just the gentlest of touches will just about send me through the roof. I find that noises and really bothering me more and more here lately. The TV really bothers me to the point where I don't want it on at all. I can identify with the money situation. I had company of 5 for 2 straight weeks and let me tell you it took a toll on my health and pocketbook. I went to grocery yesterday to replenish my food supply and it costs me $250.00 which I really didn't have but like I told my husband we have got to have food in the house, for this company will be back in about 2 weeks. They are moving here for good but have to stay with us for awhile if their house isn't ready. My old 100 year old house is in bad need of some repairs but also have to wait because of the money situation. Maybe some day we can both get our houses they way they need to be.
Hang in there.

seraphoflove9001 said...

Yes, my sister and her boy friend will be moving in with us until they are able to find a place of their own as well. They will more then likely be moving in sometime this week. You see, thats some of the differences that I talk about in my journal about people like you and I, and the people that have moved in your neighborhood. We are the givers, and they are the takers, when they are the ones that can afford it. If you know what I mean. We have love in our hearts to give, even if it takes from us, physically or monatary. Thank you so much about our loss. It was fast and very unexpected. Tomorrow will be a week now. God bless you Dianne. :o) It's people like us that keeps this world going. :o)

kywoman319 said...

Hi Lisa
Hope your tomorrow will bring a brighter day for you. It is a tough time for you. GOD Bless,Melodie