Sunday, October 29, 2006

To be...or not to be...


Or, what if? Those are some hard questions to answer. :o) Or, why? Wouldn't some of you like to know the answers to some of these questions? I would. :o) To some degree that is. Like...why do certain people act the way they do? I don't know. Especially when they are down right mean. Or, what if? Just weird thoughts this morning. :o) I got up way too early! lol :o)Can ya' tell?! :o)

I've decided to do something today. I'm going to take a few pictures of the inside of my house. And of my armoier. Then I'm going to post them. And who know, maybe one of me as well. I'm not able to bend or anything like that, and my kids are gone for the day as well, it's just my husband and I. So, I'm not able to "pick thing up," or clean. (believe me i wish I could). It drives me nuts that I can't.

I just realized last night, I have that sleep test on beggers night! I won't be able to pass out candy like I did last year, or get to see my grandson. But, I'll have someone get pictures for me. :o) He's going to be a teddy bear! LOL :o) Too cute! With big blue eyes! :o) I can't wait to see that! :o)
Since the clocks are turned back, of course my system is screwed up! lol Geesh...everytime we have to do this, it usually takes about a week to get back to "my" normal! lol :o) So....that means I'm going to be "off" more then I usually am! lol I was able to get my bedding changed yesterday! YAY! :o) Oh it felt so good! :o) I know...I'm weird! :o) But its done! :o)
Well, I do know how bad my back is once again. I walked out to the kitchen with my cane, to talk to my husband. I got out there fine, but by the time I started to talk, my back was in so my pain, it felt as if I was going to "fold" in half! Meaning, my top half of my bady was so weak, and was going to just going to bend from my waist and droop all the way to my bottom half of my body...if that makes any sense? :o( I started shaking I think because I was really getting weak. I sat down for a bit so I could make to back to my room. I told my husband what was going on, and what I needed to do. I made it back to my room in time. Whew, that was a close one! Then I rested a bit in my bed. I fel stronger and then I got my walker and went back out to the kitchen again. This time I had more stength. The walker does help with that. Plus if I need to sit in a hurry, I can sit on it. :o) I just was feeling very good at all, so I came back to my room. I sat in bed again. My back was in so much pain. I just don't understand why the epideral went away so fast. But, I am very grateful for the time that I did have with out all of thay nasty pain. :o) But, it is baffling me as to why this is still going on with these injections. Maybe I'm a person that can't take them. Who knows! :o) I'll find out in two weeks! :o) I suppose this is all for now!
I really want to thank all of you for your emails and comments! :o) God does bless all of you! :o)

11 comments:

canyonsun04 said...

I just don't understand why they cant' find something to help you, I know , well can imagine how frustrating it is :(
HUGS**********
Ang

my78novata said...

I dont know why some can be so mean. sorry you will miss your grandson. glad you made it up the stairs okay. yes My system is all messed up too

jlocorriere05 said...

I wish they could find a long lasting way to ease the pain, I know exactly what you mean. My back used to feel like it was gonna collapse and crumble to dust if I just stood still. Try to rest it today, I know you can't do much else when it hurts so bad. Jeannette xx  http://journals.aol.co.uk/jlocorriere05/Welcometomytravels/

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sugarsweet056 said...

Much love, many prayers, & some big ole hugs to you this blessed day.
Sugar

trishaham said...

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rainy35 said...

Gosh....I wish I could take your pain away.  I've been taking care of my dad who is pretty much bed bound right now because of his back.  He's going for his 3rd epidural Monday.  I'm taking him Tuesday to try IDD treatments.  It's his last resort before surgery.  They made my back worse but I've heard alot of people say it helps them.  I don't know if they would help ya.  Maybe you could inquire from the dr. or pain clinic.  Just a thought.
Hugs,
Dana

pharmolo said...

Not nice, Lisa - your entry with the pictures bears out your story more and more. Epidurals rarely last beyond 24 hours, they would have to be repeated every day. The drugs are broken down by the body's system pretty rapidly, unfortunately. Hope something CAN be done for your pain that lasts longer.

kamdghwmw said...

I cant wait to see the pictures. I am sure your grandson will be so cute.
Kelli
http://journals.aol.com/kamdghwmw/noonmom

astra1547 said...

hi Lisa...

sorry to hear your in pain, hope you feel better soon...

Astra!

merry1621 said...

LISA,
I am sorry you seem to be having so much pain.  I don't like the sound of the complications, seems to me that they are coming too fast on the heels of those injections, although don't mind me, I am no doctor.  I WISH I could take your test for you!!!!1  I hate Halloween.  Hate it, hate it.  I know it makes me unAmerican, mean, and some sort of a Scrooge, but I have never liked Halloween.  Actually, I think it scared me when I was little & I never got over it!  Well,  Lisa, I hope tomorrow is better for you!  I am thinking of you and trying so hard to figure out something more constructive I could do for you.  You deserve so much, you give us all warmth and love and I want you to know you will always have more than you need from all of us.  Never give up!
Love,
Merry