Sunday, December 24, 2006
Where ever this may leed
Good Morning! :o) I hope that all is well today. :o) I want to thank Barbara and Michelle for the Christmas cards! :o)
I also want to explain a few things. In the last entry that I wrote, I said that I give up. I give up on anymore tests, and anymore medicines. My reasons; Like my doctor told me, there isn't anymore medications out there for me to help with my pains, and everytime that I've been put on something new, I end up with a new problem, as in a new illness...etc. I don't want to live this way for the rest of my life. I'm not able to take anything for the osteoporosis, or the osteoarthritis, because he said it damages my esophigus. So, thats out of the question. There is nothing that can be done for my spine, I have to live with it the way it is. Thats, that. With God's support, I will. :o)
Plus, the tests that I have left that are for me to go through, are for my throat. I've decided not to go through them. Because I now know why my throat is closing. Because of my dentures not fitting me the right way. In which, I have also found out that I have even more damage that has been done to my face and jaw and mandilla, all because of the dentures. So, it would be a waste of my time, when I already know the "why." So, instead of going to all of this long and unnecessary testing that is hard on me and makes me hurt worse, I'd much rather stay home and rest.
I'm still a fighter! :o) And with all of the medications, I'm going to go back and take my herbs and vitamins! Thats what I used to do, and I was so much better off then, and thats what I would like to be now. :o) No more useless medications that are causing me more grief then I need. Of course, it's not like I'm going to go cold turkey or anything like that. I know how to do the medicines and slowly go off of them. I'm only on 1 that my body is addicted to, and will take about 2-3 weeks to fully get out of my system. Plus, I can work with my doctor as well. :o) With what he said to me this week, I'm sure he will help me do this. :o) So, I'm not giving up on life, or anything like that! No way! I don't have that in me! :o) My instinct in me is to fight something, more then to just lay down and take it! I remember when I was very young, like around 2, I had a doctor that nicked named me "Tiger!" LOL Because I would always fight him off! :o) And I haven't changed! LOL Now the word tiger has changed to the word b**h...lol, and oddly enough, I'm glad, because the doctors see that I'm not a quiter, I'm a fighter! lol :o)
I want to be an inspiration! :o) I want to help those out there that read this jouranl. :o) And, remember, What you do read...is me! :o) I don't "candy coat" anything! :o) I think the reason is, because I don't like to have things candy coated to/for me! :o) I want to know the truth about everything that is told to me. And thats just black and white! :o) I do my very best to do the same in this journal, and I do hope that I am doing it for you! :o)
Welll, need to go. ;o) Thank you all for your supportive emails and comments! :o) God bless all of you! :o)