Sunday, December 31, 2006

Hear me God.....


Good morning. I was hoping that this morning would be better than the rest, but no. :o( I did it agiain last night, stayed up late, so my husband would have to take care of the puppy in the morning like I have to do. :o( He hasn't spoken to me all morning, just the dagger's coming from his black eyes! Yes, his eyes are the color black, you can not see his pupils.
I just went out to the Kitchen to give him something that he'd asked for. I seen that the baby gate was up, and I asked why it was up. He said because of the puppy! I asked him what did he do that was so bad? He said that he can't house break him and is so pissed at the dog right now, he's out back, and I said, what are your going to do? Because when he gets this way, it's anything can happen time! :o( He said, I want to get rid of him! :o( I told him that this is what I do everyday in the mornings! He just gave me a dirty look, so I walked away. :o(
It's out of my hands now. :o( I've cried so much for so long, you'd think I'd have no more tears left. :o( Last night he was trying to fight with me, and I took control over that real quick, because I know when he's doing it. So I turned it around on him.

Today...I really need to get out of this house! I'll aske my daughter if she has any plans, and see is she can go somewhere, anywhere with me. I'm just shaking so badly right now. And it's not because of my illnesses either! :o( Mt faith is really being tested right now through all of this! He can't ever take that away from me!
He can live his life the way he wants too, but I chose to live my life in a more positive manner and without drama! And so far, it's all around me right now! :o( The more stress that is given to me, the more pain I endure! And he knows it! :o(
All I want to do is get under my covers in bed, and scream, and then go to sleep forever.
Thank you all for your nice comments and emails...God bless all of you, and that you don't have to fo through any of this.

19 comments:

katie39041 said...

I feel for you at this moment.What a end to the year, your not alone Lisa, i know it feels like it, but your not.You are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope your daughter can take you out. If Mr hubby was not  going to look after the puppy, why did he get him? Poor little thing.Try not to get too upset sunshine, things will work out for you.
love and hugs
katie

pharmolo said...

This is beyond my comprehension, Lisa. All the best for 2007.

sugarsweet056 said...

You're not alone dear, God is with you, always watching, always listening.
We are here too...praying for you & wishing you the best.
And altho it seems like it is only you going through this...many have gone through it, & many still are, & many will in the future. :(
So, say your prayers my dear & know we are here praying with you.
Many hugs,
Sugar

nightmaremom said...

Happy New Year my friend...  I do wish all the best for 2007.
love ya
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dca721 said...

Hi Lisa,
I've been through that with a husband.  Man they can make you miserable when it's not going right.
I wish you all the best in the New Year.
Love you,
Donna

kamdghwmw said...

When we are house training a dog here is what we do. After they eat they go out. Once they go to the bathroom then they can come back in and we praise them for being good. Around 6 or 7 we pick up all of the food and water and take them out every hour until we go to bed. They will not starve or die, but they cant go to the bathroom if they have nothing in their system. As they get older and get better control then we leave the water down. I hope this helps a little.
Kelli
http://journals.aol.com/kamdghwmw/noonmom

lisa41076 said...

Awwwwwwwwww Lisa I am so sorry about this, I hope you and your daughter at least get to have fun today, Hugs Lisa

my78novata said...

aw poor puppy.  I feel sorry for it. I hope you get a good plce to stay too.

redpoppy007 said...

He sounds scary.  I hope he don't hurt the puppy.
I am sorry you have to endure this.

therealslimemmy said...

oh no i'm sorry lisa
hope you are able to get out of the house.
why do husbands tend to give us those days.
i think they plan them
LOL
take care
and remember tommorow is a new year
ttyl
<3, em

rdautumnsage said...

(((Hugs))) I hope the New Year brings alot of change for you, for the better!!! You deserve so much more than your cruel husband. I hope he doesn't hurt the puppy, he just seems like the kind of man who would. It's not the poor puppy's fault he has a cold heart. Stay safe and loved your in my heart and prayers. Love Ya Indigo

emabecmar said...

men, grrrrrrrrrrrrr. they have no patience at all. i do hope you get to keep the puppy. best wishes for a better new year. ((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
Cindy

xxroxymamaxx said...

Happy new year Lisa!  Love and hugs, Shelly

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bethjunebug said...

Lisa, I know the feelingk!! You just want to scream shut up and do what I say and that's that!!! Men can be so stupit sometimes over the smallest things. Ans like you say stress makes our pain worse with the fibromyalgia. Sometimes I think they do it on purpose, just so we do hurt, just to get back at us, or there way. So childish. Do like I do, get a good book, go to your room and dare anyone to come in there, if they do, its on them, cause I will give them you know what, for entering when I'm trying to have some quiet time to destress. I read, then go to sleep if I can. Then when I wake most of the time everyone has forgotten what we were fighting about. Take Care of yourself, cause we are the only ones that can care for us!
God Bless,
Liz in VA.
http://journals.aol.com/bethjunebug/Bethjunebug

chevyz71gurl74 said...

Lisa...
So sorry you are having to go through this...
I do hope you get to keep the puppy...hopefully your
hubby realizes the puppy is just that...a puppy.and it will make messes from time to time until housebroken....poor thang!
He doesn't need to take it out on you though...i do hope you were able to get out of the house with your daughter....
Hugss..~Terri~

newmomtobe2001 said...

aw I hope he doesn't get rid of the puppy hopefully he's just in a pissy mood and he'll get out of it soon love Vicky
Ps> Love the tag on top so pretty :)