Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Still scared.

Last night I had a hard time getting and staying asleep. I was afraid that what happened to me the night before would happen again. :o( Yesterday when my massage therapist came, I told her what happened, and she said, "Uh oh!" And wouldn't tell me anything else! Good Grief! If she knew something, I would have liked to know, she has always told me things. So, I don't know what that means. She did, however, take a lot more time with me, and really seemed concerned. I'm still having problems walking. I'm still taking care of myself. :o) Have too, I need to get better. :o) My daughter and my grandson came over last night and spent the night! :o) Today is her laundry day, so she just thought she would surprise me and stay the night. :o) YAY! :o)

I guess thats all for now. Please keep comments comming as they really do help me through this. :o) And please sign my frappr! :o) God bless you all! :o)


dianneclewien said...

Girl it sounds as if you really need to get to a DR ASAP. Do not put it off another day. This thing that has happened with you unable to breath is a warning, a very strong warning. And tell your neighbors to go f--- themselves and to leave you and your family alone. You have got to get your stress undercontrol if you want to be around to see you grandson grow up. I don't say this to scare you but to push you to get something done to help yourself.

seraphoflove9001 said...

Actually, I haven't heard from my neighbors. It's my mom and the situation that she put me in, that has me in such an upset state! She asked me to do something for her, and I did, and then the person wrote me two nasty lestters, and my mom didn't stand up for me, it made it look like I was the one behind it all. And it has since then put back old memoreis back in my head that I had already dealt with from my past. My stepdad sexually, mentally, and physically abused me from the time I was 4 until I was 17. And when I was 15, I told my mom what he was doing to me, she kicked him out for 3 months, then took him back into the house! Which in fact made it a sh*t load worse on me! To say the least. So, thats what I've been dealing with. So, as you can see, I have been going through a lot the last few weeks. I've already dealt with my past and had moved on and my mom and I got close again. But after all of this, I'm now sort of reliving some of the things that I went through when I was young. Just kind of hard to deal with at times. But I still would like to say F*** you to my neighbors! :o) They're still not nice. Yes, I do need to go to the doctor, but he did tell me that this could happen and I don't know if he can do anything about it. I'm just still afraid I guess...I need to snap out of it. And I will, I look at my grandbaby's pictures and have the strength to keep going and pushing on! :o) Thank you so much Dianne. :o)

akapussnboots said...

Had a great time yesterday, it was relaxing, thanks I needed it too.