Thursday, December 15, 2005

Very tired.

I only got 1 and a half hours of sleep! A pretty bad headache woke me up! :o( My neck and shoulders hurt pretty bad as well. Probably why the headache. I've been up for hours now, took some Advil dor the pain, and still no relief. My massage therapist will be coming this morning. That will feel good to get the massage. :o) Boy do I need it! :o) I was having another bad day of "fibro fog" yesterday. I had to make a few phone calls and I had such a hard time trying to talk. I was so embaressd. I just forgot words in the middle of what I was saying! It was an ok day yesterday besides the fog. My pain is still the same. I talked to my husband last night about what has been going on with my mom, and what it has done to me. Physically and mentally. He told me he had noticed that I was in bad shape for awhile and wondered what was wrong. But, when he would ask me if there was anything on my mind, or if I needed to talk, I would say no, I'm fine. But I couldn't hold it in any longer. We had a great talk, and he deffinitly understood the flashbacks it gave me. He said it happens to him once in awhile too. But, I have dealt with those, and have moved on, but I still am not able to as of yet without getting the truth out to the ones who need to know. He agreed with what I wanted to do. But thats not going to happen. I was already told that. Oh well. After a good talk, I will move on. I have so much to heal for right now. :o) I have a grandson that I need and want to be with and to do things with! :o) I except everyone for who they are, but I can not except being treated the way I am. I am looking forward to this weekend! :o) My sister will be coming up to stay the night with two of her children! :o) I can't wait to see them. :o) I really miss them a lot. :o)

I had nothing to do yesterday except to rest. Blah! I'm so tired of that. I wanted to go visit my best friend but I couldn't. She only lives down the hill from me. :o) I had a box perm for a few weeks now, just sitting there. So....needless to say, I was so bored, I got myself a perm! lol :o) I look like Peter Frampton from the 70's! LOL :o) But it's much better then just straight hair! :o)

I want to thank all that have wrote comments, they really do keep me going, and to those that have also signed my frappr. :o) God bless you. :o)


shelt28 said...


seraphoflove9001 said...

OMG!!!! Boy, you need some much needed sleep! I do hope that you are able to get it! God bless you! :o)

apersonwithfibro said...

Oh just doesn't seem right for what your mother is putting you through! I've been reading your journal for awhile now, and I just can't see what your mother see's in her friend?! If her friend has put a wedge beween you and you sisters with your mother, then your mother needs to stop hanging around her and start a good relationship with her children! What's more important....your children or you friend that has done wrong?! Especially to you! Doesn't your mom realize what this has done to you?! With this need your sleep and no stress! I am sure she should know this! I'm still praying for you hon! God Bless!

seraphoflove9001 said...

Yes, she knows that I'm not suppose to have stress and I'm suppose to get my sleep. But, she told me that she wants to keep her "enemy's close" (her friend) so she can keep on eye on her. Which it doesn't seem that way at all. It has seemed to push her further away from two of her daughters though. Thank you for your prayers. :o) It helps to know that there is someone out there that understands. :o) God bless you. :o)

seraphoflove9001 said...

P.S. My husband even told me the minute that he met her friend that he got bad vibes too, like I have been getting. But, no one listens to me anymore.

soupergirl68 said...

yes I cant wait either.....try and get some rest and yes i listen to youo well NOW I ya