~Why's~

Good Morning.

Well, my husband did get my laptop hooked up with the cable! :o) So, when I'm stuck in bed, I can be on line at the same time as someone else can be on this computer as well. :o) I knew he could do it! :o) My printer is still not working. I've been trying to get it working for 2 weeks now, and nothing! gggrrr! My daughter needs it for her classes....she needs it this week. :o( I don't know what happened to it. And I can't use the scanner on it! ggrrr! My husband even tried to fix it. Well, we all have had a go at it! lol :o)
I can't remember if I wrote about this or not yesterday in my entry. But my daughter and her boy friend took my grandson to Disney on Ice yesterday! :o) He loved it! lol It was Monter's Inc. and he came home with a blue hard hat on and a stuffed Sullivan! :o) Too adorable! My daughter took alot of pictures too! Yesss! :o) So, I try and post them! :o) She also got a little bit of a video as well, and when she uploads it, I'll post it too. :o)

My physical therapist came this morning. And OH BOY!!!! YIKES!!! It hurt soooo bad! :o( She has too use her knuckles now to make sure the deep tissue massage is working. uuuhhh! I cried so hard! :o( But I know it is suppose to help me. I told her that my neuro could get any reflexes from my legs...and since she's a nurse as well, she just said, "uh hu, that does make a lot of sense." But, she isn't allowed to actually tell me anything even if she knows what is wrong with me. When I do my own research, and I show her what I come up with, she will either tell me that I'm getting very close or not say a word and shake her head no. So, I always like to her about certain things. :o) My legs this morning hurt me soooo badly! She just shook her head and told me that yes, my legs are getting worse and I NEED to stay in bed and rest more then I am! She can tell me things after I find things out from a doctor, but not until. I really like her alot. ;O) My home health aid wil be here today as well. :o)

After I got my laptop hooked up to the cable, I was in bed resting, and I had it with me to help my husband. I was able to get on line, and I thought I'd check my email. I couldn't stay on for very long, because my husband still needed to reboot the cable. So, I seen that I had two emails from my best friend! :o) She rarely has any time to get on line anymore at all to even write me a letter. :o) Plus, I haven't seen her or heard from her in so long because she works so many hours! No kidding! Well....she understood what I was getting at in my last entry...I knew if anyone would....she would. I backspaced that entry so many times, just to make sure I didn't write something to hurt anyones feelings,,in the begining of it. When I was talking about I talk too much about certain things and I should have kept my mouth shut about the insurance. Well she understood what I meant becasue she said after reading all of the comments from the previous entry, and everyone said the samething, that it can take up to 1 to 2 to 3 years for Extreme Home Make Over, and it would be a good idea for me to put in a hot tub, well then why would I do that if it would just be ripped out and then I'd be wasting my money! Which is what I was trying to say, but I don't want to hurt anyone at all! Or for anyone to ever think or feel that I am not grateful for all of your help! I am VERY thankful and happy that what ALL OF YOU have done for me! PLEASE know this! Ok? :o) I don't know how to thank everyone ! :o) Gods blessings to all of you! :o) I just hope that you understand what I'm saying. :o) And, if this is true...how and where did you find this out, because this is all new to me. If you can tell me, I'd like to know. :o)
My best friend also told me that she even made me a tape on my behalfe and sent it in to nominate me! I sat and cried! With all of your letters and her tape as well, I had no idea that everyone would do all of this for me! :o) And again, I thank all of you from the bottom of my heart! :o) I honestly don't know how else to thank you all! :o) Keep praying as well! :o)

Today, all I have planned still is to get some rest. Yesterday was pretty hard on me. I really had a hard time with my legs. gggrrr! They just wouldn't listen to me at all! :o) I had to stop in the hall way, coming from the kitchen and hold on to the wall, because my legs all of the sudden went limp on me! :o( My husband ran and got my walker! Then he helped me to my bed! That was close! It scared me. :o(And my husband. He's told me several times that he doesn't like to just sit and watch me die a slow death. And I tell him, that I don't like dying a slow death! LOL Good Grief! What he says he is doing, like puting cable on my laptop, is just trying to make me as comfortable as he can. :o) He's really changed alot! :o) Like I always say, God gave me these illnesses for a reason, and it also could be to help others out with their own life that don't even have what I do, just to learn how to really love and to love themselves! :o)
Just learn to accept! :o) I am and I have! :o) Right now, I'm in a bit of a grieving, but, it's not like it's going to last forever.....I'm already almost over it! :o)
Like having a New Years resalution. One year, I made one that throughout the whole year I would face all of my fears! Like I was afraid of hights....now I'm not! :o) That whole year, I focused on achieving them, and I did it! :o) I'm pretty proud of myself for doing that! :o) Every year, I always give myself something attainable for the year to complete! :o) And it's always something positive and something that I really need to work on and acomplish in my life. :o) I haven't made one yet for this year, but I will! :o) And when I do, I will post it! :o) Maybe it could also help someone else or I could do it with someone else! :o)
I really want to make sure to thank all of you for your supportive emails and comments! :o) Yes...they are always supportive to me! lol :o) Gods blessings to all of you! :o)

 

Tags: Love, God, support, friendship