Tuesday, February 27, 2007

There is no greater loan than a sympathetic ear!

Good morning. I do hop you all are well.
Yes...I would love to be the girl in the graphic! The kind of morning I've had so far! Why not? I was up all night again, talking to a friend, trying to help her through a difficult time. I got up from my chair, and my left leg was gone! just like that! My husband is ill and was on the couch. He was awake and saw what happened. He aske if there was anything he could do to help me....no, there wasn't. The pain was horrid as well. My upper arms hurt to move them. Yesterday, when my physical therapist was here, she was doing the back of my thighs and on my left leg, she started to rub this huge muscle "lump" that bulges out, and it moved to the front of my leg! :o( She had to put it back in place for me! The pain was so bad, I thought I was going to pass out again! I was screaming!

I got on line to check my mail last night and my friend IM'd me to talk. She is very sad. So, of course I'm there for her! I always am for my friends. I never told her anything about my day yesterday, nor my left leg. She was the one that needed to talk, so I was here for her. My computer will totally freeze up on me to wear it won't let me click on anything to get out of aol. Nor will it let me do control, alt and delelt. So, I had to cold boot it. Which takes longer for the computer to come back up. Well during our talk, thats what had happened to the computer. I had no way of letting her know! I get back on, and now she's very mad at me....she doesn't believe me and she wrote me  few bad emails. :o( My heart just sunk! She had thought I had read an email she had sent to me while I was froze, I didn't. If it was opened, I wouldn't have been able to see it, all I seen was the IM. Then when I got back on, the email would have went into the old mail. I would never have thought to go there. I seen that she had writen me, and I answered that email. Thats what made her mad at me because I answered the second email but not the first! Well because of something that was out of my control! Thats all! Not my fault.

I'm blocked from writing in her journal, and she took herslef off of my space. and she's deleted my emails. :o( I don't understand. I'm in physical pain right now and have been the whole night. But, I was not going to let that on.
Moving on......
So I guess today is just going to be a day where I'd rather sleep...that is if I can. Since Friday.....I've had 6 hours of sleep. Oh well.
I'm just getting very tired of games that people play.
For once, it would be nice if poeple would do what they say they would! I'm to trustworthy...no more of that! :o(
I'm very hurt! Like she said: Why get slaped in the face twice? She has me more then that. And I'm still her friend, because friends are there for you when you need them!
NO, I haven't called my doctor. Honestly, what is there thats left? I've taken all of those sleeping pills that theu have out. They don't work on me. I've tried Melatonin as well. Someone needs to push me down the steps...then I'll sleep! I do hope that one of these day's I'll be appreciated for the things I do. I've been sitting her since, crying. Wondering why? I know how much she's hurting in her situation, but thats NOT an excuse to hurt me!
Gods blessings to all of you!


sugarsweet056 said...

Sorry to hear you're in a bad place right now. {{{{ }}}} Have you in my thoughts & prayers. Hope today gets better for you.
Hugs, Sug

newmomtobe2001 said...

sorry about your pain love v

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((LISA)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))That is so sad,just because it wasnt your falt you bumped off line and got back on and your was mad.That is pretty stupid.I hope that maye you 2 can be able to talk again.I am sorry you are always hurting.I hope you can get some rest.I love bunches.http://journals.aol.com/hugsdoodlewacky/Mandy/

queeniemart said...

Lisa, whoever deleted you or blocked your has some issues....maybe after she cools down she can take into consideration that no one is perfect and i KNOW you would never lie. Give it some time.
I hate it that you are in such pain. I love you and wish you felt better!

helmswondermom said...

I hope you get some rest today!

merry1621 said...

Lisa, I am so sorry for your pain.  And sorry about your friend misunderstanding. REALLY!  I know what it's like not to sleep, I have had all the sleep meds and I don't sleep either.  Maybe we could knock each other out?  You are in my prayers, as always, Lisa.  Merry

kamdghwmw said...

I just know that today will be a better day for you. Just stay positive and remember that no good deeds go unnoticed.

my78novata said...

OH im so sorry for your friend to have done that to you your so sweet.  whs that had not happend. Man she needs to be more understanding of you!!!!!!!! you need a better friend. i wishthe drs oculd do somethin gfor your apin

astra1547 said...

Hi Lisa...

I'm sorry that your friend has upset you and you feel better soon. Don't worry about this situation with your friend, it will make you ill and you have enough health problems on your plate as it is...Best wishes!



astra1547 said...

Hi Lisa...

I'm sorry that your friend has upset you and you feel better soon. Don't worry about this situation with your friend, it will make you ill and you have enough health problems on your plate as it is...Best wishes!



nightmaremom said...

aawww Lisa...  anyone who knows you knows you'd never hurt someone intentionally.. maybe in time she will see that.  I'm sorry you're hurting for all reasons... please feel better soon

dca721 said...

Hi Lisa,
Anyone who would do that to you is not your friend.
I would write her off and consider it good riddings
I am sorry you are feeling so lousy.
I hope you have a better night.

ajquinn354 said...

Lisa, sorry you aren't feeling well dear and then to have to go through that with someone you thought was a friend....what a shame that she reacted that way.  Like you said, true friends are there thru thick and thin no matter what.  Surely she should have been able to understand about the computer problem, gee we all go through things like that. She wasn't a true friend Lisa. Sorry you can't sleep dear, wish there was something that could help you with that.....sure a lot of stress doesn't help you when it comes to being able to relax and sleep, talk with your doctors, see what they can do, luckily something new or a new technique seems to come up all the time that might ease this for you......Arlene (AJ)

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lisa41076 said...

Lisa, I am shocked that somebody would block you just because your computer was'nt working , that really sucks !!!!!!!!!! Hope you have a better day tommorow, Hugs Lisa

nhd106 said...

Incredible.   I had a similar experience where I was misunderstood and forever blocked from everything.   It was crazy to me.  I tried a few times, but she couldn't get passed her own BS.     I hope that your friend comes around.  Otherwise SHE will be missing out.


sweetestsin52605 said...

Hey mom! Yes the computer does freeze up on me all the time *it seems* and it pisses me off..and yes, nothing in your control at all. If the person can't understand why you didn't respond back quickly, then hopefully she will by now. I love you mom and I am SOOO sorry you are in all this pain with your knee. I am glad I helped you earlier.. ;)  Love ya

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lanurseprn said...

My computer freezes up all the time.  Especially during IM conversations!  I am surprised she blocked you for that. Obviously she has issues.  I hope it's resolved and you feel better.
Take care...Pam

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