Good morning. I do hop you all are well.
Yes...I would love to be the girl in the graphic! The kind of morning I've had so far! Why not? I was up all night again, talking to a friend, trying to help her through a difficult time. I got up from my chair, and my left leg was gone! just like that! My husband is ill and was on the couch. He was awake and saw what happened. He aske if there was anything he could do to help me....no, there wasn't. The pain was horrid as well. My upper arms hurt to move them. Yesterday, when my physical therapist was here, she was doing the back of my thighs and on my left leg, she started to rub this huge muscle "lump" that bulges out, and it moved to the front of my leg! :o( She had to put it back in place for me! The pain was so bad, I thought I was going to pass out again! I was screaming!
I got on line to check my mail last night and my friend IM'd me to talk. She is very sad. So, of course I'm there for her! I always am for my friends. I never told her anything about my day yesterday, nor my left leg. She was the one that needed to talk, so I was here for her. My computer will totally freeze up on me to wear it won't let me click on anything to get out of aol. Nor will it let me do control, alt and delelt. So, I had to cold boot it. Which takes longer for the computer to come back up. Well during our talk, thats what had happened to the computer. I had no way of letting her know! I get back on, and now she's very mad at me....she doesn't believe me and she wrote me few bad emails. :o( My heart just sunk! She had thought I had read an email she had sent to me while I was froze, I didn't. If it was opened, I wouldn't have been able to see it, all I seen was the IM. Then when I got back on, the email would have went into the old mail. I would never have thought to go there. I seen that she had writen me, and I answered that email. Thats what made her mad at me because I answered the second email but not the first! Well because of something that was out of my control! Thats all! Not my fault.
I'm blocked from writing in her journal, and she took herslef off of my space. and she's deleted my emails. :o( I don't understand. I'm in physical pain right now and have been the whole night. But, I was not going to let that on.
So I guess today is just going to be a day where I'd rather sleep...that is if I can. Since Friday.....I've had 6 hours of sleep. Oh well.
I'm just getting very tired of games that people play.
For once, it would be nice if poeple would do what they say they would! I'm to trustworthy...no more of that! :o(
I'm very hurt! Like she said: Why get slaped in the face twice? She has me more then that. And I'm still her friend, because friends are there for you when you need them!
NO, I haven't called my doctor. Honestly, what is there thats left? I've taken all of those sleeping pills that theu have out. They don't work on me. I've tried Melatonin as well. Someone needs to push me down the steps...then I'll sleep! I do hope that one of these day's I'll be appreciated for the things I do. I've been sitting her since, crying. Wondering why? I know how much she's hurting in her situation, but thats NOT an excuse to hurt me!
Gods blessings to all of you!