.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess,and in hopes it might help someone else as I do. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. God bless you!......
Good afternoon! I hope that all is well today! :o) It's suppose to be hot here today...but we did have some pretty nice and cool weather. :o) That did give me a nice break for awhile. ;o)
Photobucket was giving me a hassel earlier...so no grapics today. ;o)
I'm having alot of fun scanning pictures! lol I'm sure you can tell! :o) I shared what pictures I do have of my biological father. And the rest of the pictures I have. I met him right after had my daughter in 1985. I'd love to really know more about this side of my family...especially about medical! Thats very important to me because my doctor has told me that alot of my illnesses has come from my father! So...I've tried calling him and asking, but...didn't get very far! :o) Oh well. :o)
In the pictures of me....it shows how I was naturally thin. Which my matabolism was high...I couldn't gain weight.
It was when I was 15...when my mom said to me," When I get older, she see's me getting fat!" That I felt as a teenager was pretty devastaing to hear! I was trying to gain wait and I hear this from my mom! What? Thats when I became what is now known as anorexic!
I've been struggling with this disease ever since! It will always be in the back of my head....it does not go away! The eating part! Yes...since then...my mom and I have talked about all of this and she of course didn't realize that just by saying what she did would put me in such a state. Well...neither did I! Who does? It happened!
I did get the help I needed. But...I still struggle every single day of my life with eating! I guess it's like drinking. I don't know. My weight gain now is because of my medicines. What I look like now is what I seen in the mirror when I was 15! I know alot of the tricks and how to be sneaky to get out of eating. It's easier then you think. And it all came from an innocent comment.
Today....my daughter and my grandson is coming over!!!! A big YAY!!! :o) I can't wait! :o) More pictures! lol :o) I haven't seen them in a week! :o) Thats a long time for me...I'm having withdraws! ;o)
I want to thank all my new readers! ;o) Thank you for all of your kind words. ;o)
I need to get going! :o) Gods blessings to you all! :o)