.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess,and in hopes it might help someone else as I do. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. May God bless you!......
I was able to go back to bed this morning at 6:30! YAY! :o) I got 3 hours of sleep! Thats was good. ;o)
I had alot of help with that stupid night mare. Thank you so much to you! :o) I have a feeling I won't have it again! :o)
I also did alot of praying. I got my answer! Something I already knew! The evil has already taken him over! That is what I was told! Sad.
I'm doing my best to not be an enabler by asking and telling him to get help. It's not like I've just started this...for many years. The true love of the bottle has over powered him. I've just finally realized this last night! I know it's a sickness; but nothing and no one can take the love he has for the bottle! That has been proven!
My daughter is now ready to move out with her boy friend! :o) I'm happy for her. ;o)
Now...it's time for me! :o) After all of this toxic time together...it needs an ending. I will no longer put up with the meaness any longer! I can't! My body can't take it! So...as soon as I can...I will be finding a place for me! :o) Just the thought of it has risen my emotions! :o)
So much has happened just within this weeks time in this house...and it has all turned to the good! :o) I've thanked God for that! :o)
I will be glad to live in peace! Something I've longed for for sooo long! No more lies...no more! I can only be me...and thats it! :o)
I will no longer be told lies...have someone come to me and tell me he told them a lie...and no more catching him in his lies! It's too much for me. He broke up my marrage to my daughter's father! I've found out these things throughout the years! I loved him with all my heart! Too late now! I thought something different! Not so. :o( My feelings will never change.
On a different note....
Thank all of you for all of your support! I mean it from the bottom of my heart! :o)
Thank you for all of your comments too! They really do keep me going and wanting to write more! :o) Gods blessings to all of you! :o)