.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess, and in hopes it might help someone else as I do.I do not pretend nor imatate to be someone I'm not.I have to be careful, apparently someone are way too obsessed with 'my' life. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. And if there is something in what I write that "offends" you, options; don't read, or realize that this IS real life, and get out of your plastic bubble and learn more about it! I also know that what I write in MY journal, that NOT everyone will agree with me and I don't expect them to! God bless you!......
Good morning! I'm hoping that all of you are feeling and doing good today!
Yesterday, I had an appointment to get an MRI done again. I remembered that much. I have everything in details right here with me at all times, so I don't forget. On my calander and on post it notes.
I also knew that it was at 4:00 as well. So, I wasn't in a hurry when my mom had come to take me.
She even said to me, "You're not ready yet?" No...I had plenty of time. I thought that she just came over early. I put my last entry in, and then I went to get dressed. Then I got all my things together that I needed to take with me. We got in her van and when she turned right, instead of left to go to the hospital, I asked her, "Where are we going." She said to get your MRI! I said this way, I thought it was at the hospital! No....it was at the Kettering hospital!!! What? Thats about an hour to get there!
I think we had 40-45 minutes to get there on time! But, when she told me that we had to go to Kettering (which at some point I did know this and have it written down) I felt as if I was totally losing it! I've never ever had this kind of a feeling before! I started to feel panicy and a bit scared! I've never actually just totally and absolutly forgot anything like I did this time! It was like it was completely erased from my mind! Even when I tried hard to remember, I couldn't pull it up, it was gone! I felt like crying. I felt like screaming. I had all of these emotions just going through me so fast. Itoverwhelmed me! And nothing my mom said could calm me down or make me feel better. I couldn't remember anything!
I SO want to know what is wrong with me? The dizziness and now forgetting totally!? Whats up with this?
I got my breathing back to normal and I kept apoligizing to my mom about it. Of course, she was understanding.
So, needless to say...we were late. But I was still able to get the MRI's done. Whew! I'm hoping that something shows up on those MRI's! I was still pretty dizzy when I went in, just hoping something will show up as to why that has been going on too! Especailly me forgetting this whole thing! And it is hard to describe all of what I felt!
It makes me wonder if it will happen again, and where I'll be when it does! So many things have been running through my head about this! Do I let my nurse know? I have no idea.
We got home around 7:30. And my daughter and grandson were here. Of course, that cheered me up. Seeing my grandson playing basket ball was sooo cute! I don't know why but, whenever he wants to play basket ball, he needs to take his shirt off! lol Just too cute! We had Chinese for supper, and I needed to just stay in bed because I was/am still too dizzy. I have a bed tray that I use. He had to sit next to mawmaw and eat too! ;o) He's such a loving and big hearted little boy! So, we ate together in mawmaw's bed! :o)
I got up at 3:00 this morning because I just couldn't sleep. Thats 4 hours, so thats not too bad.
The forgetting thing just really boggles my mind! I've looked on my calander and all around my desk and yep, I had it written down everywhere! So why then did I have no clue? Honestly, this is scaring me! Too many goofy things happening to me lately. And, in too short of time, in my book!
I'm going to go. I might try and go back to sleep. I hope I can.
Thank you for all of your comments and your nice words! I appreciate it! :o) God bless all of you!
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