Sunday, October 28, 2007

About today/and a bit more......

....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess, and in hopes it might help someone else as I do.I do not pretend nor imatate to be someone I'm not.I have to be careful, apparently someone are way too obsessed with 'my' life. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. And if there is something in what I write that "offends" you, options; don't read, or realize that this IS real life, and get out of your plastic bubble and learn more about it! I also know that what I write in MY journal, that NOT everyone will agree with me and I don't expect them to! God bless you!......


 



Good moring!


I guess this is just more of what is happening to me. It happened again this morning. Being forgetful! I'm sorry, but I honetly don't or wouldn't call this 'just being forgetful!' Because it's not. No, it also has nothing to do with my medication. I've already said that in another entry; they've tested that already.

I was going to take my bath earlier. I made it up the stairs and started the water. After I sat down in the tub, I forgot what I what to do and where the hell was I! I just sat there crying. I looked around for some kind of answer for me. I finally seen my wash cloth and a few things came back for me. After I knew what to do with my washcloth, then more and more started to come back to me! When I came down stairs, Jim asked me what was wrong and I told him. I was still crying.
I don't know whats going on or why this is happening to me. Along of course with the stupid dizziness! I get paniced when the 'forgetting' happens! It's not like, "Oh wow...I forgot I put that there!" It's exactly like you never even had it in your brain! Like you have to relearn things! It's very scary!
I'm going to call my nurse today and see what she thinks I should do.


I'm sorry, but I'm so backed up with journal alerts because I was only on line yesterday morning. I'm too dizzy to even be on line. I'm going to have to delete and start over. I'm so sorry. I do hope that you do understand.
I've just been in my bed. I've been feeling safer there right now.
I do want to thank all of you for your comments! Thank you so much.....it does help me through my days. I feel so alone right now!
Because I've never felt this way before, and I've never read about this before. I'm scared and feel so alone right now. I just can't explain it, I can't think or find the right words to even start to explain it. Sorry. With your comments of support, that does make me feel that I do have support! And I thank you all!

Please don't be upset with me for not being able to visit your journals, you know I would if I felt more like myself and better. I'm really so scared right now.
Thank you for being my friends! God bless all of you!


Live Well - Laugh Often - Love Much!!!


(If I have offended anyone...please read the disclaimer at the top)


 


22 comments:

chat2missie said...

Enjoy your Sunday.
Missie

malagutigrrl said...

ah my darling fellow sick person... no need for apologies.  Take care of YOU!

dca721 said...

Awww Lisa,
Sorry you are feeling this way.
Hope you can try to relax today.
Love,
Donna

hugsdoodlewacky said...

((((((((((((((LISA)))))))))))))))))))))I hate that this is happening to you.I just want you to feel better.

mcknansmom said...

you just rest and take cre of yourself, sweetie........
tina

ajquinn354 said...

Lisa, just take care of yourself and be sure and tellyour nurse about your dizzyness and forgetfulness so that this is documented and hopefully your Doc's will be able to fheck into this or tell you if this is a normal progression of your health problems you have.  Know this has to be tough on you wondering what is happening to you.  Don't feel alone, we're here for you and we all care abot you.  Arlene (AJ)  

cuteallison1980 said...

Don't worry about visiting other journals.  I feel so badly for you Lisa.  I wish there was something I could do or say to make you feel better.  Just stay sweet and try not to get stressed out.  Luv ya! : )

Allison

lisa41076 said...

Awwwwww Lisa, do'nt worry about visiting journals, just take care of you, I sure hope you feel better, Love You Lisa XO

astoriasand said...

It's so sad I do hope something is sorted with this for you soon Lisa be careful when you are going in the bath though,if you are having dizzy spells.I wouldn't want you falling and knocking yourself out like my neighbour once did, across the road.She was there all night long.She couldn't make anyone hear her when she came round, eventually she had to go to hospital suffering from hypeothermia,when her son called and found her.Take Care God Bless Prayers being said.Kath
astoriasand http://journals.aol.co.uk/astoriasand/MYSIMPLERHYMES

my78novata said...

its sad whats happening but as many meds are your taking they can interact and you have so many drs they are not knowlegable to whats happening to you. My aunt it took four and a half years of weekly tests to the drs to come to the ocnclusion that there were six meds that dont always interact with people but did with her and cuased some issues. NOt that the meds were soley responsible BUT that the meds were exacerbating the symptoms she already had.

siennastarr said...

Since this is continuing to happen, Lisa.. you really should let your doctor know.  There are test they can run to find out if you have early stages of Alzheimers or demnetia.  If it's neither of those, then I don't know.  Definitely see your doctor.   You are in my prayers.  Best to stay in your bed where you're safe, until you find out what's going on!

Hugs
jackie
http://journals.aol.com/siennastarr/Hopefloats/

pharmolo said...

Things are not going well at all, Lisa, and I'm very sorry to hear that. It must be frightening, and needs to be looked into immediately. Take great care.

Guido

elmofromoz said...

You take care of you FIRST!!!

redpoppy007 said...

I hope you will be ok..you need to go to er..you could have had a slight stroke!
With all the stress you are under and all those high powered painkillers.  I would not take any chances.
It can happen to young people.  My bil had one when she was in her 20's.  And he has never been right since.his memory is gone.
Hugs, cassie

sweetestsin52605 said...

aww mom that sucks. :( Im sorry.
I hope that things start to get better for ya.
Have a good rest of your day.
Love ya

gehi6 said...

Pretty rough.  I will be thinking of you, Lisa, and hoping some of this will pass.  Since most of us have never experienced what you are experiencing we really can't give advice.  I feel I just hve to read and hope.  Gerry

misswings60 said...

aaahhh! honey I'm so sorry,your still feeling this way.Maybe you being dizzy has something to do with it. I'm glad you are keeping your nurse informed about this.

lanurseprn said...

That sounds just awful! Just be careful and take care of yourself.
Pam

queeniemart said...

call the doc and ask about vertigo. It is a serious and REAL problem. I get forgetful too so i can only imagine how scared you have felt lately.
XO lj

wwfbison said...

Don't worry about visiting journals, I'm way behind too and do the best I can right now.   I've found everyone understands.  How terribly scary it must be to forget what you are doing or even where you are.  Take care, you are in my thoughts & Prayers.
Lisa
http://journals.aol.com/wwfbison/life-on-a-bison-farm

mztishgray0726 said...

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emabecmar said...

(((((((Lisa)))))))))) I am really worried about you. I hope by now you have told your nurse or called your doctor to inform them what is happening. Please, please be careful. I don't want you getting hurt.
Love,
Cindy