....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess, and in hopes it might help someone else as I do.I do not pretend nor imatate to be someone I'm not.I have to be careful, apparently someone are way too obsessed with 'my' life. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. And if there is something in what I write that "offends" you, options; don't read, or realize that this IS real life, and get out of your plastic bubble and learn more about it! I also know that what I write in MY journal, that NOT everyone will agree with me and I don't expect them to! God bless you!......
I guess this is just more of what is happening to me. It happened again this morning. Being forgetful! I'm sorry, but I honetly don't or wouldn't call this 'just being forgetful!' Because it's not. No, it also has nothing to do with my medication. I've already said that in another entry; they've tested that already.
I was going to take my bath earlier. I made it up the stairs and started the water. After I sat down in the tub, I forgot what I what to do and where the hell was I! I just sat there crying. I looked around for some kind of answer for me. I finally seen my wash cloth and a few things came back for me. After I knew what to do with my washcloth, then more and more started to come back to me! When I came down stairs, Jim asked me what was wrong and I told him. I was still crying.
I don't know whats going on or why this is happening to me. Along of course with the stupid dizziness! I get paniced when the 'forgetting' happens! It's not like, "Oh wow...I forgot I put that there!" It's exactly like you never even had it in your brain! Like you have to relearn things! It's very scary!
I'm going to call my nurse today and see what she thinks I should do.
I'm sorry, but I'm so backed up with journal alerts because I was only on line yesterday morning. I'm too dizzy to even be on line. I'm going to have to delete and start over. I'm so sorry. I do hope that you do understand.
I've just been in my bed. I've been feeling safer there right now.
I do want to thank all of you for your comments! Thank you so much.....it does help me through my days. I feel so alone right now!
Because I've never felt this way before, and I've never read about this before. I'm scared and feel so alone right now. I just can't explain it, I can't think or find the right words to even start to explain it. Sorry. With your comments of support, that does make me feel that I do have support! And I thank you all!
Please don't be upset with me for not being able to visit your journals, you know I would if I felt more like myself and better. I'm really so scared right now.
Thank you for being my friends! God bless all of you!
Live Well - Laugh Often - Love Much!!!
(If I have offended anyone...please read the disclaimer at the top)