Tuesday, October 23, 2007

I'm a bit hurt....

.....Just to let you know, nothing in this journal's entry is toward anyone in specific, I use it to write my feelings, and about my illnesess, and in hopes it might help someone else as I do.I do not pretend nor imatate to be someone I'm not.I have to be careful, apparently someone are way too obsessed with 'my' life. And if you might take an entry wrong and feel that it is about you, I'm sorry but It isn't, it just may seem to coincide with your own life. And if there is something in what I write that "offends" you, options; don't read, or realize that this IS real life, and get out of your plastic bubble and learn more about it! God bless you!......


 



 


I decided not to go to my appointment. I just don't have the energy to even get to my car! So I called and rescheduled it for next week.


Why do people hurt you on purpose? Not by accident. If thats what you've set out to do to me, I'm letting you know, yes, it worked! I hope you feel better now by doing this.




Moving on......


My best friend came over for alittle while! No matter what, she can always cheer me up! :o) She couldn't stay too long because her mother is in bad shape. She has been in my prayers.


I've been doing a lot of thinking about this journal and the whole J-Land thing. Lately, it seems that I get hurt more so then happy from it! To me, J-Land is like being in school again. It has it's own type of clicks! "Oh, lets send emails out to others about this person, behind their back!" Just how mature is that?


To be completly honest....I'm just about done with all of this crap! Who here in J-Land like it when you write something that made you happy and to have someone just burst your bubble are worse, say and do bad things to you! Is that right? Are you allowed to judge me? Not to me!


And all I've ever wanted to do is to usethis journal like an actual journal because I can not write! When I do write, it's the truth, and it's getting what ever off my chest! This is My journal and stop with the stupid childish little clicks that talk behind others back!!!
I can, and I will write what ever I want to in this! If you don't like it, then email me and stop reading it! Leave everyone else out of it please! Does any of this make sense? Read the disclaimer I put at the top of my entry's! Ok? If you think about it, it doesn't give you or anyone the right to judge, put down, say things that aren't true! Does it? NO!


I know that I'm not going to go private. And the person that I'm talking about is blocked from this journal!
I'm so tired of all of this baby playing games! Doesn't anyone realize that I have fibromyalgia and Multiple Sclerosis and Osteoporosis, plus more; and then still come here to hurt me! Ok, what does that do to my body?


Until whenever........
(when all baby games stop)



 


30 comments:

Anonymous said...

YOU TELL 'EM, GIRL!!!

Anonymous said...

You can't let this person get to this badly, ignore them.  I know it is easier said than done and I had an outburst at someone who was emailing me but you know what, they aren't worth the time or effort.  Don't let one unhappy person get you down - you fight bigger battles than this everyday!
Lisa

Anonymous said...

Lisa, you can't let anybody chase you away. This is your jiurnal not theres. keep them blocked or even report the to AOL so AOL could kick them off AOL.

Hugs to you.

Sunny

Anonymous said...

Lisa, a lot of us have said it to you before, write what you want, we don't all have to agree, but it's your journal.  Glad you blocked the one who you talk about.  Know you have enough going on with all your health problems, make that your top concern, do what you have to keep yourself in an upbeat situation.  Truly believe being upbeats versus letting things get to you or stress you out can do wonders for helping day to day when it comes to your health dear.  Don't let things get to you, doesn't do you any good does it?  Have a good oen. Arlene (AJ)

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Anonymous said...

Oh No not again Lisa.Look love you be you, and let them be them.They will learn sooner or later.I am with you all the time ,carry on with your journal as though nothing has happened, the stress will not do you any good whatsoever.Lets have a laugh, find some funnies for me Haaaa.At least we can laugh and help one another, which is more than can be said for them.Take Care God Bless Kath
astoriasand http://journals.aol.co.uk/astoriasand/MYSIMPLERHYMES

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Anonymous said...

sad that people have to be so immature. forget them.
love ya
hope you have a good day

Anonymous said...

I agree with Jackie's comment. She said everything just right.
Pam

Anonymous said...

I get so tired of people judging everything someone else does.It just pisses me off.In the Bible Jesus say's who among you have not sinned can cast the irst stone.So wake up people,we are not here to judge waht other people say or do.
So get a life of your own and leave my daughter alone. Until you walk in her shoes, then keep your big mouth SHUT!!!.Now is that plain enough for you? I love my daughter just the way she is. A loving,caring person. and who is a great person. She a great mom and a great human being. How many people can say that. So leave her alone,you don't want her momma after you.
Love ya baby
Momma

Anonymous said...

Oh and one more thing,don't give up on your J-land friends. They are your true friends. So keep up the faith and stay true to yourself.
Love Mom

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Anonymous said...

Thank you mom....that is so very true. Now you see the things that I go through. and people think that its me! I don't think so. I know what kind of comments I'll be getting......block this person....don't write about it....things like that. Oh well...thats what happens when "I" EXPRESS MY FEELINGS ABUOUT WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME!

Anonymous said...

you dont need thishurt. YOu really need to make it private and blocke the emails and or just hit delete. you do not need this kind of treatment. just stop it for your own sake. you need this jorunal to relate and to be at peace nad give an outlet. dont let them get you!

Anonymous said...

(((((((((((((((((LISA))))))))))))))))))))))))))I am sorry you been hurt by all this,you dont need any of it.I  am praying for you.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry things are going from bad to worse, Lisa. It's very mean and small of the perpetrator; it's so easy to kick someone that's already down.

Anonymous said...

So sorry you're feeling hurt by what some one did. I know how easily you get your feeling hurt, you're very sensitive. I hope you'll let it go now that you've blocked them...just move on with your life. It's your journal & you can write what you want. If you'd feel more comfortable, go private & invite all those wanting to stay readers! I know most will. :) There's lots of wonderful private journals here in J-Land. I hope you don't consider leaving all together, we love you.
Hugs,
Sugar

Anonymous said...

Lisa, I've already posted, but was rechecking some of my sites I read and saw Jackie's message.  She is 100 percent right.....listen to what she said.  You are feeding the fuel when they see you upset like that, they're happy, don't give them the satisfaction. Arlene (AJ)  

Anonymous said...

Lisa,

Sorry for whoever this is that is giving you such a hard time. Jackie is right they are getting what they want. Trust me can so relate to this with you. Hang tough and don't let them win over you body, mind and or soul.
Sharon

Anonymous said...

What a terrible way for people to act.  I'm sorry you are being treated like this... Linda

Anonymous said...

Oh Lisa!  Why is it that you think your journal was private?  I know quite a few others who are gay and I never saw them splashing the news about in their journal.  You should have known that by announcing as you did and rubbing our faces in it, you would get some negative comments.  Go on with your life.  What you have written above is childish.  You are fighting disease.  I know it's stressful, but you are not the only one that is fighting disease.  Our beloved Penny is gone.  Read the Bible and see what the Word says about your situation.  You don't have to agree about it, as we don't have to agree about your homosexuality.  Praying for you, Penny http://journals.aol.com/firestormkids04/FromHeretoThere http://journals.aol.com/firestormkids04/TimeforaLittlePoetry

Anonymous said...

I truly hope you feel better soon....it is very iffy to write things in a public forum that are so private because many many who SAY they are your friends, are not. They delight in mocking and hurting. As you know,i know this well. You refuse to go private so you will always have the ones who will come here to just see what they can see to hurt you. Going private wont even stop it, trust me on that. I have been disillusioned about J land for months and months.
You are a sweet and good friend. Take care of YOU.
LOVE, lisa

Anonymous said...

Ignore them Lisa, do not let them get to you.  Do not comment on what they say.  The one thing we all know about bullies is that they do not like to be ignored.

Mary
http://journals.aol.com/maryajacobs5/grand-tour-of-america/


Anonymous said...

Awwww Lisa sending hugs your way (((((((((((( Lisa ))))))))))))))))))))) Love You Lisa XO

Anonymous said...

Hi Lisa,
Like I mentioned before, this is why I don't have a journal.
My feelings get hurt easily and it seems some people out there like to judge.
If someone were to disect my blog, it would really piss me off too!
What bugs me the most is that it seems to come from the so called "religious people."  They read the Bible, yet still judge??  How annoying is that??
I say blow if off...it's not worth your time and stress.
Keep your chin up.
Love,
Donna

Anonymous said...

Don't let anyone get you down.  If you want to write in here feel free to write anything you want and don't worry about what others say.  Ignore it and go about your business.  Take care and have a good evening.

Phil

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry that you got hurt by someone. Please do not let them get to you. Life is way to short to let mean people get you down. I do hope that you feel better.
Kelli
http://journals.aol.com/kamdghwmw/noonmom

Anonymous said...

Sorry you are hurting girlie girl.  Concentrate on good things and try not to let one or a select few people bother you so much.  Try to find positive things in your life to keep you happy and stay away from the negativity because all it does is drain the soul.  Luv ya!

Allison

Anonymous said...

Yes, life is too short to enjoy it .We should make us live a happy life .Many of my friends talked about this topic on horsematch.com .

Anonymous said...

I think your journal is very nice.... With all your pain and sorrow that your are going through with your illnesses it takes some kind of person to try to hurt you... Maybe God bless you and keep you safe... I write a little poetry myself...  I loved our insperation of the day.... My journal is the Relm of Poetry.... I have a few poems on there a couple you might enjoy if you would like to read them... a couple of them is my way  of finally rising away from taking my own life for granted...